Quote kot benda nih..; )

Got this from a friend :


There is no beginning or end
Yesterday is history
Tomorrow is a mystery
Today is a gift

Yesterday is a history... i like this ayat...; ) if you understand what i mean... ; )

o ya..lupa nak cakap was so happy yesterday.. i bought a new pair of shoes.. despite duit dah tinggal saki bakikan... have to la... kasut lama dah koyak... daaa.. thats y la have to buy...

gambar tak yah la..kot... ; ) kasut oun bukan la.. brabded ke apa pun.. RM 39.90 je... ; )

one more thing... mak apply kerja baru lagi.. he...he.. as usual.. will not give up... till dapat... kat mana tau FRIM.. better to kerja lam hutan dari kerja kat sini kan...
kawan ngan pokok2 yang tak boleh bercakap tu kan... dari communicate dengan Ms. Sensitive.. kat sebelah ni ha... ewww... o ya decided to put my CP kat atas meja some sort of cam seperator gitu kan.. better....idak le sakit mata sangat... !!!!
selain tu ada lagi yang aku mintak kerja.. nak cuba PPJ, Sukan and UITM.. cuba je mana tau kot dapat ke.. untung-untung ada rezeki dapat.. INSYAALLAh.. pentingnya.. kite cuba dan usaha dari not doing anything about it...
; )

my entry for today... ; )

pas ni citer pasal ariff and apa jadik kat luar je la.. malas dah nak elaborate pasal things at UNIM...BORINGla asyik tulis pasal UNIM je....
cam tak de idea lain dah... UNIM..UNIM je..

happy sangat... nih... dah ada bahan nak siapkan assignment ni.. sikit je lagi and nak focus test this sunday...and the big part... nak complete DEGREE nih.. INSYAALLAH...; )

Batu ku tau rupa-rupanya ada orang ikut blog aku nih.. yang aku tak kenal la.. ada orang suka baca tulisan aku rupanya.. thats a good thing.. ;)
one more thing... AKU PEDULI APA.. WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINKS ABOUT ME!!!... tak SUKA then STAY AWAY!!!.. senang tak yah la nak kelam kabut and pening-pening kepala otak...
bukannya aku dapat duit when people likes me..
read my lips.. I DON'T CARE.. i just don't care....



so.. ta..ta.. ti..ti. tu..tu..cont esok..; )

Sometimes the best way is to stay away

Hmmm...today i am so..so.. happy because Ms. Sensitive tak datang kerja.. managed to buat banyak sangat benda without thinking if terhempas barang ke.. tak de la orang nak terasa hati ke.. moody ke kan..

Hari ni.. adalah semangat baru untuk aku..aku dah sedar tang mana silap aku...
silap aku adalah being to nice with her... ya la.. the more you know that person baru la the true colours shows...
silap aku lagi adalah being to close with her.. because i thought i can see a true friend from her... rupanya.. i was totally wrong..

First of all i would to thank ALLAH for showing it to me.
I thank ALLAH for giving me this tests and for me to realise things and see things in the postive ways.
I thank ALLAH because he didn't turn HIS back against me.

Aku pun tak tau sejak bila aku sangat-sangat beremosi pasal benda kicik-kicik and as stupid as this.. maybe sejak aku duduk dekat dngan Miss Sensitive kot...
aiyaa.. so horrible.. dulu aku tak cem gini pun.. cheerful-cheerful je walaupun kerja dengan Mr. Kicap.cem pening-pening gitukan...and letih travelling but i still datang kerja.. tak le semalas cem gini.. or bosan cem gini...

a friend of mine cakap.. sabar... buat bodoh je ngan orang cem gini and IGNORE.. tu yang penting...and kite tak leh nak jaga hati semua orang... so lantak dia la kan...

I WILL FOLLOW THOSE ADVICES....

o.. well... hari ni.. aku live another day.. tu yang penting tu... got to live and see Ariff smiliey face and his act... got to live and see hubby... yang bz je.. but for the family.. o well...
alhamdullilah in everything... ; )

BITCHOLOGY

...; )

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch.

When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.

When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when

I act a little selfish. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.

I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed.

And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.

B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself

..; ) pepagi ni dah mula dah... o well true what....

.....best la lagu ni... MATAHARIKU

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau
Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi
Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu
Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

hari ni..

The so called miss perfectionist dah balik dah from her trip to cambodia ( ...o god.. how wish dia tak yah balik malaysia at all ).. so bad of me kan..
and hari ni DIA cam nak jadik like last mth.. i mean not Ms. Perfectionist...its HER.. ala.. my ealier write up bout how i CAN'T STAND HER ANYMORE... aku pun heran.
tu tak masuk bab kerja.. if its bout work.. i just don't understand y does she got to make things so complicated... and kenapa la aku mencurahkan segala ILMU yang aku ada kat sini only to find out that her attitude is like that.. tapi tak pe sebab bak kata kata orang la kan.. kedekut ilmu ni tak kemana.. tak pe la.. no problem...
ambik ko.. aku geram sangat.. sebab your attitude SUCKS big time..

wa..so angry pepagi ni.. sebab DIA gak le..cam na la.. dia communicate dengan orang..
camni..
semalam kat sini power trip and so does the photostat machine.. so dia cam rosak sikit tak leh copy and fax and scan..so she called up the centre.. patutnye the technician datang semalam but she did not follow up.. orang tu tak datang.. so i have to do the clean up for HER!!!!!!!!!!this morning... nanti semua orang tak leh guna.. kan and our office really depends on the machine for faxing and copy..
Aku tak le kata aku ni terer bagus sangat dak.. aku pun.. on the learning curve gak...tapi aku tak biar perkara tu berlalu cam tu je.. i don't TAI-CHI..
hmmm... apa la.. lembut TAK BERTEMPAT... tegas la sikit tapi not RUDE!!!
ye la... compared tu aku.. tak pandai computer-computer cam dia kan.. kasar.. straight foward... tapi kerja jalan.. siap on time..insyaallah...
o ya.. as i am typing this.. mesin photostat tu tengah direpair rite now...
TERIMA KASIH WATI sebab follow up pasal hal ni... as usual...; )

Ni la cara aku express marah aku.. dari aku hurt other people's feelings like HER kan..

ARIFF again...

suka sangat kena snap picture..cam bersedia je...
light. camera.. action... ; )

saje je masa ni.. dia suka sangat buat aksi cem gini. tak tau mana belajarnye...kelakar pun ada gak.. ariff..ariff.. macam-macam la awak ni.. tapi tak pe.. abah and ibu love u so much... muahhhhhhhhh....

kenapa la.. before that.. my new tikar...

saje je nak letak gambor tikar yang baru di beli meant for Ariff.. so he will stop jilating the floor kan... and tak le bila dia meniarap.. terkena lantai whatsoever kan... and plus... lembut tikar ni and i like the colour, design.. simple and besar.. senang gak bila orang datang.. idak le.. sejuk duduk atas lantai..

opsss.. yang tilam biru tu belongs to ariff gak... tu la tempat dia lepal night and day... ; )ibu pun belasah gak.. sometimes...


KENAPALA..

kenapala.. aku tak de kereta so i don't have to trouble.. semua orang.. and senang aku nak pergi kelas and if ada extra kelas ke apa ke.. and senang for me to bring ariff where i go and i don't have to trouble zul anymore.

kenapa la. aku tak de laptop.. macam orang lain... senang untuk aku belajar.. tak le terkejar like right now... penat sangat.. kerja and belajar sekali gus cam sekarang.. curi-curi print san print sini... jalan sana sini jalankan kerja aku kat sini.. aku tak tau nanti macam mana.. bile dah masuk final year.. which is another 2 sem je lagi and macam mana nanti if dapat sambung masters?
tah..tah.. aku kena lupakan semua impian aku sebab TAK MAMPU!!!
aku sedih sangat sekarang... sedih sangat.. kenapa dari dulu sampai sekarang susah sangat untuk aku menimba ilmu? mungkin ini dugaan dari ALLAh kot kan.. sebelum berjaya..
apapun aku BERSABAR.. aku tau.. mesti ada plan yang baik untuk aku..insyaallah...
aku percaya semua ni ada hikmahnya..

hmmm.. dugaan...aku tau pasti ada orang yang lebih susah dari aku.. and aku bersyukur... seriously i am. cuma tu la.. bila terkenang balik...

tapi aku berjanji dengna diri aku sendiri yang aku kan habiskan pelajaran ini... I WILL NEVER GIVE UP.. NEVER SURRENDER...

right now.. i am like rindu sangat kat ariff... baru je like kol 12.32 tgh.. right now.. rasa cam nak balik and peluk dia... hilang semua masalah ni.. bila pandang muka dia..

ARIFF..IBU LOVES YOU SO MUCH.. AND REALLY NEED YOU RIGHT NOW..and would like to borrow your cute little ear so that you can listen to ibu's little problem..
and there is this one rhyme that used to nyanyi kat ariff till now... created by Mak tok timah...

cam ni...

burung ketiti
hinggap atas titi
Ariff besar nanti
jangan lupa diri


..; (

anyways.. have a nice weekn....