31.12.2008

hari ni is the last day for this year 2008...less than 24 hrs kite akan menyambut 2009
banyaknye citer tahun ni...
tahun ni.. i am blessed because GOD has sent me MOHAMMAD ARIFF ISKANDAR BIN ZULRULAZAHAIRI..pemata dalam family aku yang dilahirkan pada 16.7.2008..
tahun ni bertambah umur aku.. and ALHAMDULLILAH ALLAH panjangkan usia aku dan hubby...

I am so thankful for the precious gift that you have sent... Ariff
I am so thankful that i am living another day di atas muka bumi mu YA ALLAH
I am so thankful sebab semua yang aku mintak bejalan dengan lancar....especially perjalanan hidupku, pekerjaan ku dan terumata sekali pelajaran ku....
ALHAMDULLILAH.... dan bersyukur atas segala nikmat mu.. YA ALLAH..

sedih gak nak meninggalkan 2008... tak tau nape.. mungkin sepangakn setahun ni.. banyak yang berlaku yang aku tak leh nak elaborate kat sini..
shhhhhh.. biarla ia menjadi rahsia aku dan diri ku..

o well.. c u next year.. friends.....
with more stories.. and photos..

P/S fara.... to my fren... he...he.. he..
nanti la mak ni.. letak gambor meja makan tu yek..belum sampai da.. semalam ribut...so kena postpone la.. nanti rosak lak meja makan di tiup dek ribut kan.. ; )

And dedicated to you.....; )
Fara.... i am thankful that god has sent you as my good friend...
i wish you all the best in life dari segi health and wealth... ; )
fara.. kite akan sesama kurus by next year tau.. ; )
and thats a promise.. ; )

Another photo of ariff..

bile tangkap gambar.. tau-tau je.. senyum and posenye yek..he...he...

29.12.2008

Selamat menyambut MAAL HIJRAH... apakah hijrah anda? amboi statement.. he...he..

NVM..

o well.. i brought Ariff and hubby to Sogo and we went shopping.. ahta do u mean by we.. IBU la. abwak depa shop sampai ariff tertidur... atas bahu abah dan ibu dia.. he..he..

ala its been a long time have not shop anything for myself.

tak de la shop apa sangat.. but let me see ...

hmmm..

1) I bought this big handbag black ( phewww.. thank god ada sale kan.. if not.. it will cost me a fortune tau.. )

2) Ibought a weaning set for ariff and baju bola and si kecik excited sangat with the baju.. maybe its because of the colour kot kan.. and bip.. sebab dia dah nak mula makan dah..

o ya he will turn 6 bulan dah.. next mth.. on the 16th..

alhamdullilah...

3) Pas tu we went and bought this dining table.. 4 seater je sebab tak nak take up space..

mana tau if we have to move to a smaller place ke..at least tak le take up space banyak sangat kan..

but alhamdullilah.. dah berjaya dah ada meja makan.. for a year i have been yearning for that meja makan and finally ALLAh has fulfill ed my wish...

ALHAMDULLILAH again...

jap letak gambar.. beg ku.. he...he..he.. tumpang dia tengah lawakan..

Ariff and his towel..

I was busy preparing his warm water.. kire nak mandi la..so i place his towel.. dekat je dengan dia.. when i turn back to look at him.. la.. tengok2 dia dok sedap guling-guling dengan towel.. terkejut gak takut mana tau kan.. tertutup hidung dia ke apa ke..

ibu..ibu..careless... dah tau ariff dah leh mencapai object letak gak.. dekat dengan dia kan...

ishh... will be more caerful next time....

Tak sabarnye tunggu Ariff 6 bulan... hmmm.. dah besar dah anak ibu dari 0 mths.. dah sampai 6 mths dah... alhamdullilah... and smarter....dulu.. cam apa orang kasik.. nganga je... la ni.. dah pandai memilih.. susu if tak suam cam dia nak.. tak mau dia dekat.. if susu tu cam just nice. je.. laju je.. dihisap... hmmm.. tak pe la.. as long as your happy anakku....; )

Lupa nak la nak citer pasal birthday ku.... which was last week...o well.. no present whatsoever..but..

I am thankful sebab aku masih lagi berdiri di bumi Allah

I am thankful that hubby put an effort to celebrate and importantly he REMEMBERS!!!

Biarla tak de expensive gifts from him... but we celebrate it our way which is makan2 kat secret receipe and we bought this 2 pcs of reaspberry cheese cake... and makan kat umah... and he sang birthday song with ariff yang terpinga2 tak tau apa ke benda la.. kami buat kan... and importantly... GROUP HUG....

pas tu jeng..jeng.... jeng... ariff gi cucuk... I AM SO PROUD OF YOU.... tak nangis pun...

Anak ibu.. berani rupanya... dia tak nangis pun masa kena cucuk.. ibu je yang over...he...he..he.. and he is actually 9 kg dah masa tu.. no wonder la.. cam lenguh2 gak le tulang2 ku.. cam nak tercabut tulang rangka ni actually...tapi tak pe.. Alhamdullilah.. semua sihat... and functioning well..

hmmm...raca cam citer dah benda ni.. tapi tak pe la.. rasa cam tak puas citer pasal ariff..

excited..excited.. he..he..

Buggy

Ariff and his buggy...

Phewww.. finally we bought him a nw buggy selepas yang lama tu hilangkan.. and he is so happy enjoying his ride in his new buggy to tesco la.. and we went to Ikea pun with it! o ya tak lupa, we bought for him a baby car seat as well as classes dah nak mula and abah has got to sent ibu and bring him along..

dah ada car seat tu senang sikit.. a bit worried though takut dia meronta and menangis cem gitu kan.. but i doubt it la.. tapi tah le sebab dia kecik lagi kot kan...tak tau la bile dia dah sedar yang tempat tu tak best sebenarnye.. kan..

o well whatever it is. i am thankful we amanged to buy kedua-duanye sekali.. alhamdullilah..

o ya... ada la gambar sikit... sempat tangkap semalam..

one more thing we bought him makanan for baby 6 and bove... this nestle thingging atogether with mixed vege and also biskut... ala.. farleys tu... banana... dia kan susah sikit kan nak membuang...

hmmm... anak ibu dah nak masuk 6 bukan dah...kan....

tapi ibu akan cuba buat bubur nasi sendiri juga.. nak ariff makan air tangan ibu jugak.. tak mau rely on makanan cem gitu je..

latest photo of Ariff

latest gambar ariff.. masa ni baru je bangun tidur petang..

ibu memang suka snap gambar.. surprise-surprise gitukan...

He is going to turn 5 mths dah... 16.12.08 ni.. alhamdullilah...

next month will try to feed him with neslac... insyaallah...

Empty space

Just look at the empty space kat situ... hu..hu...hu.. stroller anak ibu hilang...yesterday hubby, myself and little ariff we went to tesco ala... cam biasa la.. end ot the month groceries shopping... so we walked and shop and shop... sampai dah habis bayar.. evertything went well... smoothly..s o we bought what we want.. and balik...
sampai kat kereta.. hubby told me to get in the car with ariff so i went in while hubby load those stufs we bought.. and drove off.. sampai kat umah... baru dapat tau masa nak unload.. tu stroller missing.... bile hubby patah balik to the same spot kat tesco where we park our car... hmmm.. just as i thought.... trolley tu ada kat the same spot... tapi stroller hilang....
huwaaaaaaa..... tension la... there goes my badget for a dining table or a baby car seat for little ariff.... but apa pun.. i have to choose either one.. to korbankan badget for dning table or baby car seat...
i guess.. i'll choose the baby car seat and let go of the dining table instead.. ye la.. ariff is more important than a dining table anyways....hopefully.. by next mth, i will have enough money to buy that seat ( i have to la... class nak mula dah.. siapa nak jaga ariff... ) we have to carry ariff... class on a sunday.. tak de bb sitter on that day.On a sunday of coz la kan.. bby sitter pun nak rehat gak with her kids gak... hmmmm.....

tak pe la.. i am not angry whatsoever.. benda dah nak jadik.. tak de rezeki nak buat cam na. cuma right now.. i am really wishing tak jadik.. ye la.. semua ni adalah cost that can be avoided... tapi tu la like i said... benda dah nak jadik kan....

begitu lah kisah... AN EMPTY SPACE.....

sekian...

i do not know why i uploaded this untitled photo in my blog. comel kot.. and inilah benda yang paling creative i could think of right now.. i've uploaded my sons photo...tak pe la kot.. as long as it makes me happy..

hmmm...kind of sad today... seeing my old office after a year transformed into a bloody counselling room... dah ada discussion room but Mr. Hindraf nak gak bilik tu... hmmm.. tak pe la..its not just the room.. its the memories inside it.. banyak sangat.. tapi nak buat cam na..
sabarkan... because i know ALLAH is planning sumthing better for me... insyaallah..

Bile la nak kerja dalam erti kata kerja yang sebenarnye... not like right now. blogging bile ada mood.. baca pasal gossip la.. paper la.. kerja buat air, makan minum.. kire datang ofis ni lepak to the maximum.. and the best part tu la.. FREE INTERNET ACCESS.. tak yah gi CC just to update blog or YM whatsoever..
hujung bulan nganga terima gaji... maybe to you it seems cam fun.. memangla fun at times... tapi not everyday for the past one year ok.. kire 365 days... minus the weekend...
bukan aku tak bersyukur.. ada kerja dan dapat gaji halal everything.. i am thankful tak menggangur.. and everything...
but i know myself better that i can do better than this.. something yang challenging my brains to think..
tapi tu la tak de rezeki lagi kan.. sabar like i said earlier on.. ALLAH has some better plans for me... sebab tu tak de rezeki lagi...insyaallah..
o...well... patience is a virtue.
insyaallah..one day.. aku akan tersenyum... semula...

MUHAMMAD ARIFF ISKANDAR NYE GAMBAR AGAIN

Ariff again...

Happynye hari ni

I am so happy today because....... esok...
Its the weekend.. will be able to spend more time with him.. infact.. tak sabar nak balik...rumah and pick him up.. and play with him...
nanti it will be such a drag kan coming to work on Monday... hmmm.. tapi hopefully by monday dah dapat gaji... ada la semangat nak drag my feet to work....
kerja ke kat sini pun... seriously tak de... takat menghadap PC.. pas tu update blog.. pas tu baca cerpen on line.. pas tu balik...
lantak le kat sini kan.peduli apa aku...
janji dapat balik and berhappy with MUHAMMAD ARIFF.. this weekend.. ; )

Pagi ni.. and another photo of myself...

Memandangkan tak kerja at ALL.. serioulsy TAK DE LANGSUNG.. maka nye.. 'tersnap' la photo.. diri sendiri kat ofis ni..seriouly ni adalah muka keboringan kat sini.. after yesterday.. deep thought mengatakan... TO HELL WITH THIS PLACE.... memang like i said earlier.. cukup hujung bulan terima gaji.. ofis ni nak tunggang terbalik ke apa .. to HELL with it.. as long as.. hujung bulan dalam account ku.. ada duit.. enough..

To : Mr.Hindraf,
TO HELL WITH YOU and your expectations. I DON'T CARE.. read my lips.. sucker.. I DON'T CARE... nak senyum kat ko nak buat apa.. buang masa aku je.. nak say GOOD MORNING kat ko nak buat apa... perabih air liur aku je pun.


To : Ms.Perfectionist a.k.a Ms. Hindraf..
WOIIII... dah masuk lambat hari ni. tak yah la nak tunjuk lu tu efficient and PRO sangat.. peduli apa aku lu stay kat subang ke PJ ke.. lu balik lambat ke travel ke apa ke.. office hours clearly stated 9.00Am - 5.30PM... lu dah tau kawasan lu tinggal tu Jam.. keluar la awal.. ni masuk ofis nak tunjuk lu tu cam bagus sangat.. udah le.. To : Ms. Senget.. UDAH LE.. with the dinner.. dah semua orang tak nak pergi.. jangan la nak paksa orang.. who wants to go to that bloody dinner anyways.. u want to go just go la.. with Mr. Hindraf... tak yah nak memaksa orang.. pergi..

To : Ms. Panic..
I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT YOU.. SINCE YOU ARE ALWAYS PANICKING je kan... There i go again babbling about this place...

Next round... i will try to talk about ariff more... ARIFF... My son.. u r the only person in this world who makes me laugh... and at ease.. though at times.. i may be so angry... and nag.. a lot.. but I LOVE YOU THE MOST... I am sorry i babap your punggung.. semalam....

Pagi ni.. syok la.. gi kerja naik tren kosong je and cam tertanya-tanya lak " eh kerja ke hari ni' if kerja kenapa kosong je.. banyak lak tempat duduk.. " so there i was on my own lam tren kosong..syok tak de orang.. and minding my own business... kan best if hari-hari tren tu kosong je cam hari ni.. jap yek tengok ada gambar.. sempat lak tangkap pagi tadi.

Memandangkan tak kerja at ALL.. serioulsy TAK DE LANGSUNG.. maka nye.. 'tersnap' la photo.. diri sendiri kat ofis ni..seriouly ni adalah muka keboringan kat sini.. after yesterday.. deep thought mengatakan...

TO HELL WITH THIS PLACE.... memang like i said earlier.. cukup hujung bulan terima gaji..

ofis ni nak tunggang terbalik ke apa .. to HELL with it..

as long as.. hujung bulan dalam account ku.. ada duit.. enough..

To :

Mr.Hindraf,

TO HELL WITH YOU and your expectations. I DON'T CARE.. read my lips.. sucker.. I DON'T CARE...

nak senyum kat ko nak buat apa.. buang masa aku je.. nak say GOOD MORNING kat ko nak buat apa... perabih air liur aku je pun.

To :

Ms.Perfectionist a.k.a Ms. Hindraf..

WOIIII... dah masuk lambat hari ni. tak yah la nak tunjuk lu tu efficient and PRO sangat..

peduli apa aku lu stay kat subang ke PJ ke.. lu balik lambat ke travel ke apa ke.. office hours clearly stated 9.00Am - 5.30PM...

lu dah tau kawasan lu tinggal tu Jam.. keluar la awal.. ni masuk ofis nak tunjuk lu tu cam bagus sangat.. udah le..

To :

Ms. Senget..

UDAH LE.. with the dinner.. dah semua orang tak nak pergi.. jangan la nak paksa orang..

who wants to go to that bloody dinner anyways.. u want to go just go la.. with Mr. Hindraf...

tak yah nak memaksa orang.. pergi..

To : Ms. Panic..

I AHVE NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT YOU..

SINCE YOU ARE ALWAYS PANICKING je kan...

There i go again babbling about this place...

Next round... i will try to talk about ariff more...

ARIFF... My son.. u r the only person in this world who makes me laugh... and at ease.. though at times.. i may be so angry... and nag.. a lot.. but I LOVE YOU THE MOST...

I am sorry i babap your punggung.. semalam....

Ideas

why must we be angry bile kite tak boleh menerima idea orang lain. I just don't understand why.bukankah each one of us is entitle for our own opinion and ideas. I am not angry whatsoever cuma tak faham. bile kite tak setuju dengan orang lain tak kire la ideas ke opinion ke mesti nak bermasam muka cam cuka. hmmm.. entah le.
Bosan betul dengan keadaan kat International Office. Orang kat sini banyak idea tapi.. bile kite tak setuju dengan idea yang given by them... dah nak tunjuk gile kuasa whatsoever...
tak pe I will find another option... u know la what i mean kan..
i wil try my best high and low and insyaallah.. just pray and hopefullu i wil be able to get out from here. aku sayang gak kat sini. tapi.. sori la bro.. tak mencabar mindaku at all.. bile datang ofis dok baca pasal gossip, sembang dari pagi sampai ke petang sampai balik.. pas tu dok tengok pasal resepi segala bagai.. mencabar apa namanye tu.. kerja ke cam gitu... hmmm.. tah le..
aku pun tetakut gak nak blah daris ini. mana tau.. tempat kerja baru.. tu lagi teruk ke apa ke..
tapi tu la.. takkan nak selamanye cem gini..
tak leh jadik. rasanye cam useless sangat.. belajar tinggi2 untuk semua ni ke pun?
baca pasal gossip la pasal masak la.. benda la... hmmm...
tapi tu la.. sabar.. my time will come soon..insyaallah...
will try my best to search for opportunities else where..
insyaallah...
ok la.. catch u again tomorrow... signing off....
nak kejor bas la pulak... ; )

OBAMA

Aku tau la dia dah gantikan BUSH tu kan... tapi apa masalah minah ni sebenarnye.. why is she so obsessed with him.. boleh tak cam nak cakap je kat minah ni.." aku peduli apa OBAMA tu mati kena bunuh ke jadik ke idak ke presiden.. udah-udah le tu... " i know its important to know ye la.. tak salah..tapi idak le every detail nak kena kasik tau pasal dia kan..
bile aku tanya pasal sejarah kawan tu.. senyap tak tau apa...la..kata dah obsessed sangat dengan si OBAMA tu....
hmmm... entah le... tapi bile sembang pasal politic kat malaysia nganga je..
aku ni idak le terer benor politicnye pun.. boleh la sesikit... nengok berita yang mana sempat...
eiiii.. dah le... bosan betul...

orait.... mak ni nak ready-ready nak balik kejar sana sini... cam lam time table tu...
so i shall cont esok...

Gambar Ariff

I know i promised a lot of people gambar ariff.. and alhamdullilah dah berjaya menguploadkan his photos.. dari baru sudah mandi sampai la dia meniarap....
hurayyy...dah berjaya upload.... and i can look at him everyday.. kat blog ni....

in abah's arm

Baru sudah mandi... and wondering benda la ibu ni.. kan

Dia dah boleh meniarap at 3 mths...

Ariif... tengok la dia tidur..

Dia tengah tidur....

Ibu saje je... tak de kerja...

ARIFF

aiyaaa.. gi tangkap gambar dia sampai twice la pulak.. satu masam satu senyum kire ok la yek

happy sangat hari ni

Alhamdullilah.. happy sangat hari ni.. Ariff dah boleh meniarap, pusing and angkat kan kepala dia....if not dulu sangkut part tangan.. pas tu dia berenti. ... and when he is tired.. dia cam jerit mintak tolong...
so funny... ariff..ariff...

Ibu mintak maaf sebab awak memain sorang-sorang sampai tertidur semalam... I have to sayang if not.. ibu tak bermakan la malam and pagi ni...
he played yesterday sambil hisap jari...sampai tertidur...kesian...
tapi dapat jugak memain dengan dia pagi tadi..alhamdullilah...
kiss-kiss dia kiri and kanan.... and he was so happy gak kot dah boleh meniarap, sideways and pusing kan badan 360 degree...
Mesti korang boringkan baca blog ni.. tak habis-habis citer pasal Ariff je...
eh mesti la.. he is my son... i gave birth to him...mesti la aku bangga. and who cares what others think...

nanti bulan december or end or middle of Nov kot dah start class balik.... ada lagi 3 sem cem gitu nak habis and insyaallah.. tak sabar nak naik atas pentas and pakai that robe and get that degree...insyaallah
pas tu.. tengok la.. if i have to buat loan bank nak sambung masters.. insyaallah i will.. nak gak masters.. tak kire.. insyallah...
its my ambition.. nanti tak de orang akan pandang rendah lagi dekat perempuan ini.... OSMAWATI OSMAN....

ok la.. cont esok...

MUHAMMAD ARIFF ISKANDAR

Melahirkan Muhammad Ariff Iskandar adalah the best thing yang pernah berlaku dalam hidup aku.
Nothing could ever take that experience away from me. Being hospitalised for 2 days and using forcep though it was a normal delivery cukup mengajar aku erti the unconditional love yang dimaksudkan oleh sis before she left for vienna last year...
thank u sis....now i know....

Muhammad Ariff Iskandar...
ibu love u so much sayang...
i pray to ALLAH that you will grow and menjadi seorang anak yang bijak, soleh, sihat dan sempurna akal dan fikiran mu...
Jangan lupakan ALLAH bile dah berjaya nanti
Insyaallah...

Muhammad Ariff Iskandar...
Ibu promise that i will work hard and keep the money
Ibu promise to study hard and find a better job
Ibu promise that i will give you everthing that i can

Muhammad Ariff Iskandar...
I WILL ALWAYS, ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY ENTIRE LIFE...

my first time blogging

i have no idea y do i have my own blog and blogging. tah le.. but whatever it is i love tulis-tulis ni... blog tempat i let it all out. tak yah nak citer kat sesiapa just type je apa yang aku rasa.