Alhamdullilah.... akhirnye..

Alhamdullilah.. akhirnya Allah answered my prayers... FOR ARIFF FOR MY OWN FAMILY FOR ARIFF'S FUTURE AND MINE... i got a job...finally.. after suffering for a few months.. not a big company... tapi a manufacturing company producing plastic card.. ala.. card cam visa, sim, mastercard... this company yang produce card ni and certified by visa la.. meps la... hq in Thailand and offices in US, indon, philipines, denmark and africa... boss mat saleh as usual... yang rasa diri dia bagus sangat and memang pandang rendah kat orang mesia... padahal baru je 5 tahun kat sini.. who cares... i just want the money to survive.. bab gaji... ermmm... tak le besar cam kekawan yang lain.. earn 2,34,5,6 K sebulan.. tapi insyaallah...la sementara... and the MD expects aku stay forever with the company..mana boleh... aku ada target aku sendiri... sementara ni ok la... dekat je ngan umah...
dapat la cover susu and pampers ariff, makan kami sekeluarga.... kena ikat perut la.. gaji kecik.. aku nak simpan lagi...
o ya... kad sspn ariff dah sampai dah.. finally.... alhamdullilah... ada la simpanan for ariff dah and his siblings... insyaallah... siblings..next year kot...he...he....insyaallah....

Monday ni segalanya akan berubah....insyaallah... cuma aku risau... mesti tak de surau kan...cam na la aku nak solat zuhur and asar... staff dia semua international.. siam mali ok.. and benggal and mat saleh... hmmm.. muka melayu cam tak de je pun.. bahagian production ada la... ye la kilang kan...
la... lupa nak habaq aku kerja apa yek... i am back with Customer service bidang yang aku paling tak suka sebab kena hipokrit!!! tapi aku ambik pasal masa depan aku and ariff... bahagian sales department..admin la kot... katanye la... whatever la... janji kerja halal and kerja yang baik...insyaallah.... week ends coti.... yang tak best probationary period 6 bulan... hmmmm.. whatever... janji cam aku cakap.... dapat gaji, kerja halal, baik and enough for me and ariff to survive... if dapat peluang kat SPP aku or government baru aku blah from there... insyaallah...

Anyways.... ALHAMDULLILAH and TERIMA KASIH ALLAH...

Terima kasih ustaz sebab kasik semangat and dorongan and doa....

bye for now....

sesi bergambar bersama.... MUHAMMAD ARIFF

ariff and alex...
mandi dalam wading pool...

ariff and babah...boyfren2 ku..he..he...

ni first time pas lahir mandi dalam bb tub..he..he...

Memandangkan aku tak bekerja lagi kan... aku menghabiskan masa ku dengan ariff.. taking care of him.... buat aku lupa semua masalah aku sekarang... ariff... awakla..penawar duka ibu.... love u... my boy... forever...

exam dah habis dah.. alhamdullilah

dah lama tak menuliskan... rindu pulak rasanye... exam pun dah habis dah... last week.. its time to tulih2 balik....tapi dalam dok exam tu.. sempat gak berFB... he...he... sekadar mereleasekan tension... hmmm... exam... i hope i can actually pass with flying colours despite.. tak baca sangat... and dok study ngan ariff kan...he...he... dia pun tolong ibu gak kan.. hafal and understand those facts kan...

mungkin inilah rahmatnye kot kan... aku tak bekerja... ada masa ALLAH kasik.. baca buku and cover balik masa dengan ariff... tang mana tercubit... terjerit... terjentik tu kan.. semua aku dah tercover balik dah sesikit... kire puas la jaga ariff... mandikan ariff.. susukan dia... makan dia... kain baju dia.. semua la pasal ariff kire puas hati lah.. ariff dah rapat balik dah ngan aku.. alhamdullilah... blessing in disguised.... insyaallah..

o ya... alhamdullilah... esok aku akan pergi for another job interview.. MNC HR EXEC... tapi temp je.. 2-3 mths cem gitu rasanye but if perform insyaallah.... dapat la permenant... i think... tak pe la.. i'll grab apa je sekarang and lesson learnt well dah.... plus.. salary wise pun ok... double dari apa aku dapat before...insyaallah...
ala.. baru nak gi interview je kan... and...
I PRO MISE MYSELF>> AKAN CUBA BUAT YANG TERBAIK.. insyaallah..

Ariff... ibu akan usaha... sampai dapat... ariff doakan ibu..k... nanti bila kite dah ada duit... ibu belikan ariff baju banyak sikit... sebab yang ada tak cukup... dah nak buruk... harap baju mak tok timah kasik je masa raya... ibu promise... ibu akan kerja kuat and ikat perut lagi sikit...supaya duit kite cukup..ariff leh makan sedap2 cam anak orang lain.. and main permainan cam anak orang lain... and paling penting sekali... ibu janji ibu akan carikan bumbung atas kepala kite sekeluarga...insyaallah..

IBU JANJI... akan kerja rajin2 and tak mo lagi cam dulu....insyallah...

lupa aku ada beli novel baru...hari ni... murah je...ala balance duit skit lama acc.. its an indonesian novel... so..bahasa campur indon and malay... best gak... pasal pengorbanan seorang ibu... hmmm.. i wonder since when aku terer benor indon2 ni... hmmm... i wonder....apa pun... best... aku baca slow2 sebab nanti dah habis... nak baca apa lagi... he..he....

k la...tangan dok type and mata dok tengok citer rindu bertasbih... pengorbanan seorang suami pada isteri yang derhaka.... walau cam na jahat pun isteri dia... dia tetap terima...hmmmm...

ta..ta.. for now... TC

hari raya 2009

masa nipagi raya kami melawat kubur arwah.. hu...hu... RINDUNYA....

Ariff latest hair style... BOTAK

habis citer aku botakkan senang nak maintain... and nampak muka dia bersih dari ada rambut.. tah nape... i like it this way... MACHO kot...he...he...

apa pun ni la hero ibu....

remember my son...

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU no matter what people say bout you...

take care my son and ibu pray that ALLAH will always be with you..

ibu doa ariff jadik anak yang baik.. taat pada ALLAH... jangan lupa solat... ariff jadik orang yang bijaksana... AND....

RAJIN TOLONG IBU KAT DAPUR gak...he...he....kopek2 bawang ke... goreng2 telur ke.. tau....

he..he....

selamat hari raya frenzzzzz

selamat hari raya frenzzzz.... alhamdullilah dapat kite sambut raya again this year kan... insyaallah panjang umur... kite sambut lagi tahun hadapan...
to all my frenzzzz.. yang mengucapkan selamat hari raya...hari tu... terima kasih.... ingat gak kamu semua pada insan kerdil ni yek...he...he...
o well.. selamat haro raya to guys as well... semoga ceria selalu.... :)

but its kindda sad though... meninggalkan bulan ramadhan kan..
i miss the sahur and bazzr ramadhan and also the hikmah of bulan ramadhan...
don't know bout you but ramadhan.. betul2 akan dirindui... ; (
insyallah..panjang umur.. kite sambut lagi... k la.. da..da...
till the next post....

banyaknyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee assignment

This semester banyak benor assignment..

semua kena source out of the book... hmmm.. mencabar is global marketing la.. strategic management menarik.. strategic marketing management pun so..so la..

sales pun leh tahan la.. paper dia..kena source kat luar gak..

kesian ariff.. lama tak betul2 jaga dia..

tak pe.. i know what i am doing is for him gak and that.. my kejayaan belongs to him as well..

o well.. if tak rasa susah sekarang macam mana nak rasa senang kemudian..kan..
kena sabar.. nak habis dah.. and another new chapter for me.. once i finished this paper or degree..
he..he..

masters or baby perhaps.. i might do both..

if orang lain leh buat and sacrifice..kenapa aku tak boleh buat? aku mesti leh buat.. mesti cuba and usaha.. sampai boleh...

insyaallah....

k la.. till then..

rindu sama ni budak2..he..he..

dah anak dara dah anak sedara aku ni... nina is eleven this year...

rindunya kat depa berua nih... hu..hu..hu

o if your are asking depa gi mana for summer.. they went on a cruise..

photos of ariif and me..

pagi tadi tangkap gambar ni.. nunggu zul la mandi lambat benor.. tu la.. kan ibu dah cakap.. tidur awal..

masa ni... malam.. and he is so excited.. tangok fon je.. tak sabar nak menyambar je...

my new hair cut..

photos of ariff at 11++.. ariff dah leh jalan and he loves technology LT, fon, TV la.. and trucks and kereta ferrari dia.. and keretapi ..so much and enjoys watching politics and paling best.. he will drop everything for azan... specially maghrib sebab time tu memang kami dah balik umah dah..

next week.. ariff nye birthday... tapi maybe we will do it at home just the 3 of us.. kindda like it that way.. just the 3 of us.. simple and sederhana..

k la. till then.. ta..ta.. for now..

yuhuuu.... i am back with more photos from mudah

Kan best if leh stay kat area cem gini.. look at the pool and the building.. and this a 1 million ++nye area....and having this view... wa... what a life and rumah kan.. baru best nak jemput kekawan and relatives..

mak nak kitchen cem gitu... cantik kan.. simple and teratur je..

if kome boring tak yah le baca.. sebab i am into this interior semua ni sekarang.. kire cam a new passion cem gitu.. he..he...

ariff ada gambar baru semalam and so does ibu... which she cut her hair last week. ok la kot.. short and neat... senang tak serebeh.. and penting sekali i don't look like a TURTLE!!

orang pendek.. gemuk cam aku nih..tak sesuai rambut panjang sangat.. tak nampak tengkuk..nak panjang boleh tapi paras baju je.. more than that u end up looking fatter and a TURTLE!! trust me.. you don't want end up looking like that sebab i've done it!!!! HORROR sangat... he...he.... ni ibunye pendapat.. tak suka tak pe....

k la.. till then... ta..ta...

another photo from mudah... he..he.. saje je.. i know i can't afford it.. but still..kan best...if

ada cem gini...nanti if ada lagi i will tampal some more...

Anak ibu....

Anak ibu..

i will never forget this day.. i gave birth to you.. after all the hardship and those hospital visits when he is always not around ..remember when i was hospitalised... its so troublesome for him... but its worth it to be having you as my son.....

MUHAMMAD ARIFF ISKANDAR..

Ariff.. no matter what happens between me and your father ..IBU will always love you. Remember that i will always be there for you. though i can't buy or give you the moon and the stars..and tak pandai nak agah you like your dad... ibu sayang kan ariff gak and hope that you will love me back...

right now.. rindu sangat kat awak..

ariff... ibu sedih sangat.... no one to talk to.. no one to turn to.. ibu rasa nak end je life ibu...

hari ni...29.05.2009

hari ni.. i went down stairs and bought 2 bottles of diet pills. i don't care anymore as long as i can go kurus or loose weight takat 60 kg or 58 kg... i will and i have to. i had enough of him looking at kurus girls out there... typical malay man.. kan..perempuan kurus semua lawa. so let it be.. biar orang lain pulak tengok aku.. aku geram sangat after what he said... ada la... cannot elaborate kat sini... to personal.. and nothing to do with other women..
but maybe i would get a better treatment if i were a different person..
so here i am.. my mission to get that ideal weight... tak pe.. insyaallah.. i will get that weight.... i will control myself from eating that delicious food.. bukan tak makan langsung..control makan kasik perut kicik cam bulan puasa..mana tau kan...

nanti mak, chu,teh, abang, wani idak le kata aku gemuk lagi.. naik kereta sampai terbenam...
i will never forget all that... though its a joke to u.. but not to me.. i am ur sister!!!! how could you say such a mean thing to me.. masa raya.. pulak tu... maybe you've forgotten... but not for me..

tak pe.. if me being kurus and getting a masters and a degree would gain ur respect... i will prove it to you guys and specially HIM!!

osmawati osman dah hilang kesabaran dah...

I WILL PROVE IT TO YOU!!!!

Happy fathers day.... dedicated to arwah....

Happy fathers day abah.... che.. rindu sangat kat abah....
i wish ur still here with us.. playing with ur grandsons...and daughter nina ariff and alex....
pity ariff and alex for not being able to get to know u as their grandfather..
tapi i know for sure ALLAH loves u so much and i know ur happier up there.. kan..

If you're still around mesti abah tau macam mana nak nasihat kan.. abah tau apa nak cakap.. apa nak buat semua kan...
abah cam tulang belakang for all of us....
tapi che tau.. ALLAH sayangkan abah....


o ya lupa nak habaq.. ariff nak masuk setahun dah.. next month and he is getting bigger and taller n heavier as well... and loves to play with the gas stove....
if abah ada.. mesti best.... tak pe la bah.. ni semua dugaan tuhan kan.. kite kena bersabar...


Happy fathers day and hargailah bapa , ayah, abah, daddy anda for if they leave us... for good... they'll never come back.. and only memories will accompany you masa father's day.....

adios....

7 secrets of success....

I found the answers in my room ....

Roof said : Aim high

Fan said : Be cool

Clock said : Every minute is precious

Mirror said : Reflect before you act

Window said : See the world

Calendar said : Be up-to-date

Door said : Push hard to achieve ur goals.....

looking at old college photos

hmmm... looking at college photos reminds me of my college years in which was enjoying my life to the maximum... ye la kan pvt college.. who cares apa u buat kat sana kan... so pepaham je la.. Langkawi.. liq murah... ciggies murah... clubbing sampai tak ingat nak balik ke asrama.. those we rethe days.. tapi study tetap study... still dapat good grades.. dapat anugerah president lagi tau.. he..he...thats me..

hmmmm.... alangkah bestnye if i can turn back time... and fix few stuffs masa tu..like.. college mates yang banggang.. ada la.. but not u la reen.. ur my best buddy masa tu.. and i am so sorry for not being there sangat for you masa tu..

but then again... life was fun... fun sesangat.....kan?!!!!

Langkawi... i missed u.. a lot!!!!! and wish i could start my life all over again kat sana and this time with Ariff... and zul... and right now...dah terbayang2 ada umah kat sana... maybe a small business... maybe.... ariff can go to skool kat sana... and living a simple life... there.. sampai hujung nyawa... he..he...he...

no more traffic jam.. tak yah nak rush cam sekarang...

bangun tu tak le awal benor dah cam dulu.. tapi kena rush sikit kejar lrt je..

o ya no more MONORAIL.. no more LRT...

yang ada cuma laut..laut dan laut.. dan pasir pantai....and sunset... he..he...

alangkah bestnye....

ok la.. dah le tu.. mak nak balik kg ni... he..he....
have a nice weekend guys....
take care... god bless....

hmmmm.... lama tak update blog

Dah lama tak update blog. Life’s been good and enjoying my life in KL. Colleagues best sangat we MYOB and we laugh and laugh sampai kol 6.00PM. pas tu balik we walk together-gether exchanging experiences and stories. They actually listen to me. And the best part is we do not Gossip about each other. At least kurang sikit dosa aku kan.he..he..maybe betul apa orang kata.. blessing in disguised kan.... apa yang berlaku dulu ada hikmah di sebaliknya.... i got to learn new things... new places to hang out...and get to know new friends..

Talking about friends.. hmmmm.. memang banyak yang nak aku tulis tapi nanti ada lak yang terasa.. but few days ago.. inilah yang terjadi....
Aku ada this friend of mine... kesian tu kesian gak after what the husband did beating her up sampai separuh nyawa kan tapi...

tapi after seeing her rasa cam nak menjerit je cakap kat dia.. cem gini.."child custody tak habis lagi tapi dok ada affair ngan orang lain.. "and some else's property...boleh.. and the best part is.. padan la ngan jantan tu pun... tetiba citer ada prob ngan wife lak.. i told this friend of mine... those are lame excuses la... for a JANTAN like that.. and awat la dia ni bodoh sangat..dah lama dah i told her the same thing.. sampai at one point dia.. senyap seribu bahasa..
pas few mths baru nak call.. citer tu la ni la.. its not like i don't want to listen or help or advice.. tapi aku kan..
if dok citer benda yang sama.. pas tu aku advice benda yang sama tapi orang tu tak mo dengar mula la aku angin... orang dok nak nolong dia.. pasal kite nampak whats ahead of her..yang dia dok ulang benda yang sama.. silap yang sama... benda la... don't waste my time because.. if you don't want to improve nak berada di takuk yang lama.. go ahead by all means but don't come running around telling me.. ''o wati... i should have listen to you..bla..bla...'' memang boleh BLAH...
aku angin sebab bukan aku tak nasihat dia this and that.. banyak sangat nasihat sampai tak tau nak nasihat cem mana lagi dah...hubby pun sampai cakap.. tak yah buang masa ngan orang cem gini.. dia yang tak nak berubah.... hmmmm..tapi because she is a friend.. i stayed and listen..

hmmm..maybe its a bout time.. aku stop benda ni semua.. i mean.. dengar..dengar and dengar masalah orang.. and nasihat..and understand sebab masalah aku pun bukannye ada orang nak dengar or tolong pun.. like right now... o well.. tak pe.. i turn to ALLAH.. HE'll listen....

back to this friend of mine..... i totally disagree with her...berciter masalah ngan laki orang.. i told her.. if you are sincerely cuma berkawan...dengan laki tu.. ask that fellow to intro u to her wife.. sebab tak nak timbulkan fitnah.. at least the wife tau kome cuma kawan biasa je not more than that.. dia tak nak..i mean laki tu kata.. dia ada prob ngan wife dia..so dia tak nak.. from there we know la kan.. apa maksud laki tu.. tapi kawan aku ni bodoh..laki tu la.. tempat da mencurahkan segala nasib yang menimpa diri dia.. bla..bla...BENGGONG!!!!ha.. geram la ni... sebab tak sedarsedar lagi apa yang berlaku before pada diri dia.. hmmmm... eiii.. dah le.. buang masa aku je...

o ya..latest updates… Ariff dah panjai memanjat.. and his first target is the sofa. Tak boleh pun dia usaha sampai boleh gak.. That’s my boy.. he..he… tapi the scary part is bile nak turun dia tak reti so he will turun cam Superman.. Boleh cem gitu.. so sekarang tak leh lelari tinggalkan dia sekejap.. and dia suka sangat lepak kat dapur.. and dia dah leh reach the gas stove!!!!..
Heart attack tengok dia dok capai nak tekan sana sini..
Ariff.. Ariff... Ibu and Abah loves you so much tau... We pray that you'll grow happily and healthly and jadik anak yang solih taat and patuh pada perintah Allah and also Ibu and Abah...

no gambar yet as i am lazy to uplaod or even to lift up the camera....

Photos of Ariff masa kicik.... ; )

Me.. and Ariff... masa lam pantang...; )

Belon Panas la pulak...

Dah lama nak nak update gambar2 ni semua... takd e masa.. snow since i've got all the time in the world maka.... adalah gambar ARIFF ku di sini...

masa ni dia baru 8 ke 7 bulan rasanye..