MY LIFE....

ARIFF AND ZUL

2010-03-14T18:57:00.000-07:00

you guys are the pillar of my life and my strength to continue
without you guys i think i would have gave up on everything...
we might lack of material... not enough this and that not being able to buy this and that but insyaallah....and alhamdullilah god gave u guys to me to support me when i am trouble ( which selalu la kan ) and encourage me to finish up my degree...
i will never forget those years you guys supported me... sampai dah nak habis papers ni dah... ada yang tido.. ada yang nangis.... hangat hujan... kome selalu ada....to wipe these tears away...

Ariff my lil caliph.... ibu sayang sangat kat kamu.. ibu tak mintak apa2 pun dari kamu cukup la kamu jadik insan dan anak yang soleh... bimbing keluarga kite... kamu taat dan patuh pada ALLAH... and usaha tanpa kenal jemu...ariff satu je ibu mintak... BELAJAR LA RAJIN-RAJIN ilmu dunia and akhirat.... kerana HANYA DENGAN ILMU SAHAJA KITA DAPAT UBAH NASIB KITA..
satu je ye sayang.... WALAUAPA PUN IBU AKAN TETAP SAYANGKAN ARIFF... if ariff lambat pun ibu akan tetap tunggu ariff... sampai bila2.....insyaallah.....

Zul... my laling.... i love you dear and till death do us part... insyaallah...
i tak harap apa pun dari u.. cukupla... u ada untuk kami... and i thank u for the love and support.. u bawak keta hantar and ambik i walaupun dulu u buat i hangin je kan... buat tak reti tapi thank u for being more responsible towards the family...compared to last time..
mungkin u tak beli those expensive gifts like some husband does.. tak kisah pun... sebab tak nak le benda tu jadik routine... bila dah jadik a MUST tak besh.... tak surprise lagi.. dah kan sayang kan...kan...kan....
one more thing sayang kite mesti kurus nanti i nak convo kan... he...he... u tak kisah pun i gemuk kan tapi i tak nak GEMUK walaupun u tak kisah.... i KISAH... i nak jadik the best wife ever for you walaupun dulu i mengamuk giler kat u and hangin je semedang kat u kan...he...he..
aku insan yang lemah...he...he...sowi la yek....but
I LOVE YOU..he...he...
i takkan lupa hari i lahirkan ariff u cam risau je kan takut i mati yek...he...he....idak le... ALLAH nak kasik i peluang lagi BERTAUBAT and MINTAK AMPUN DARI DIA and YOURSELF la...

THANK YOU ARIFF AND ZUL.....the love and pillar of my strength....

Alhamdullilah.... akhirnye..

2009-12-09T21:06:00.000-08:00

Alhamdullilah.. akhirnya Allah answered my prayers... FOR ARIFF FOR MY OWN FAMILY FOR ARIFF'S FUTURE AND MINE... i got a job...finally.. after suffering for a few months.. not a big company... tapi a manufacturing company producing plastic card.. ala.. card cam visa, sim, mastercard... this company yang produce card ni and certified by visa la.. meps la... hq in Thailand and offices in US, indon, philipines, denmark and africa... boss mat saleh as usual... yang rasa diri dia bagus sangat and memang pandang rendah kat orang mesia... padahal baru je 5 tahun kat sini.. who cares... i just want the money to survive.. bab gaji... ermmm... tak le besar cam kekawan yang lain.. earn 2,34,5,6 K sebulan.. tapi insyaallah...la sementara... and the MD expects aku stay forever with the company..mana boleh... aku ada target aku sendiri... sementara ni ok la... dekat je ngan umah...
dapat la cover susu and pampers ariff, makan kami sekeluarga.... kena ikat perut la.. gaji kecik.. aku nak simpan lagi...
o ya... kad sspn ariff dah sampai dah.. finally.... alhamdullilah... ada la simpanan for ariff dah and his siblings... insyaallah... siblings..next year kot...he...he....insyaallah....

Monday ni segalanya akan berubah....insyaallah... cuma aku risau... mesti tak de surau kan...cam na la aku nak solat zuhur and asar... staff dia semua international.. siam mali ok.. and benggal and mat saleh... hmmm.. muka melayu cam tak de je pun.. bahagian production ada la... ye la kilang kan...
la... lupa nak habaq aku kerja apa yek... i am back with Customer service bidang yang aku paling tak suka sebab kena hipokrit!!! tapi aku ambik pasal masa depan aku and ariff... bahagian sales department..admin la kot... katanye la... whatever la... janji kerja halal and kerja yang baik...insyaallah.... week ends coti.... yang tak best probationary period 6 bulan... hmmmm.. whatever... janji cam aku cakap.... dapat gaji, kerja halal, baik and enough for me and ariff to survive... if dapat peluang kat SPP aku or government baru aku blah from there... insyaallah...

Anyways.... ALHAMDULLILAH and TERIMA KASIH ALLAH...

Terima kasih ustaz sebab kasik semangat and dorongan and doa....

bye for now....

sesi bergambar bersama.... MUHAMMAD ARIFF

2009-12-09T20:21:00.000-08:00

ariff and alex...
mandi dalam wading pool...

ariff and babah...boyfren2 ku..he..he...

ni first time pas lahir mandi dalam bb tub..he..he...

Memandangkan aku tak bekerja lagi kan... aku menghabiskan masa ku dengan ariff.. taking care of him.... buat aku lupa semua masalah aku sekarang... ariff... awakla..penawar duka ibu.... love u... my boy... forever...

exam dah habis dah.. alhamdullilah

2009-11-16T06:58:00.000-08:00

dah lama tak menuliskan... rindu pulak rasanye... exam pun dah habis dah... last week.. its time to tulih2 balik....tapi dalam dok exam tu.. sempat gak berFB... he...he... sekadar mereleasekan tension... hmmm... exam... i hope i can actually pass with flying colours despite.. tak baca sangat... and dok study ngan ariff kan...he...he... dia pun tolong ibu gak kan.. hafal and understand those facts kan...

mungkin inilah rahmatnye kot kan... aku tak bekerja... ada masa ALLAH kasik.. baca buku and cover balik masa dengan ariff... tang mana tercubit... terjerit... terjentik tu kan.. semua aku dah tercover balik dah sesikit... kire puas la jaga ariff... mandikan ariff.. susukan dia... makan dia... kain baju dia.. semua la pasal ariff kire puas hati lah.. ariff dah rapat balik dah ngan aku.. alhamdullilah... blessing in disguised.... insyaallah..

o ya... alhamdullilah... esok aku akan pergi for another job interview.. MNC HR EXEC... tapi temp je.. 2-3 mths cem gitu rasanye but if perform insyaallah.... dapat la permenant... i think... tak pe la.. i'll grab apa je sekarang and lesson learnt well dah.... plus.. salary wise pun ok... double dari apa aku dapat before...insyaallah...
ala.. baru nak gi interview je kan... and...
I PRO MISE MYSELF>> AKAN CUBA BUAT YANG TERBAIK.. insyaallah..

Ariff... ibu akan usaha... sampai dapat... ariff doakan ibu..k... nanti bila kite dah ada duit... ibu belikan ariff baju banyak sikit... sebab yang ada tak cukup... dah nak buruk... harap baju mak tok timah kasik je masa raya... ibu promise... ibu akan kerja kuat and ikat perut lagi sikit...supaya duit kite cukup..ariff leh makan sedap2 cam anak orang lain.. and main permainan cam anak orang lain... and paling penting sekali... ibu janji ibu akan carikan bumbung atas kepala kite sekeluarga...insyaallah..

IBU JANJI... akan kerja rajin2 and tak mo lagi cam dulu....insyallah...

lupa aku ada beli novel baru...hari ni... murah je...ala balance duit skit lama acc.. its an indonesian novel... so..bahasa campur indon and malay... best gak... pasal pengorbanan seorang ibu... hmmm.. i wonder since when aku terer benor indon2 ni... hmmm... i wonder....apa pun... best... aku baca slow2 sebab nanti dah habis... nak baca apa lagi... he..he....

k la...tangan dok type and mata dok tengok citer rindu bertasbih... pengorbanan seorang suami pada isteri yang derhaka.... walau cam na jahat pun isteri dia... dia tetap terima...hmmmm...

ta..ta.. for now... TC

hari raya 2009

2009-10-06T22:11:00.000-07:00

masa nipagi raya kami melawat kubur arwah.. hu...hu... RINDUNYA....

Ariff latest hair style... BOTAK

2009-10-06T22:05:00.001-07:00

habis citer aku botakkan senang nak maintain... and nampak muka dia bersih dari ada rambut.. tah nape... i like it this way... MACHO kot...he...he...

apa pun ni la hero ibu....

remember my son...

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU no matter what people say bout you...

take care my son and ibu pray that ALLAH will always be with you..

ibu doa ariff jadik anak yang baik.. taat pada ALLAH... jangan lupa solat... ariff jadik orang yang bijaksana... AND....

RAJIN TOLONG IBU KAT DAPUR gak...he...he....kopek2 bawang ke... goreng2 telur ke.. tau....

he..he....

selamat hari raya frenzzzzz

2009-10-02T08:38:00.000-07:00

selamat hari raya frenzzzz.... alhamdullilah dapat kite sambut raya again this year kan... insyaallah panjang umur... kite sambut lagi tahun hadapan...
to all my frenzzzz.. yang mengucapkan selamat hari raya...hari tu... terima kasih.... ingat gak kamu semua pada insan kerdil ni yek...he...he...
o well.. selamat haro raya to guys as well... semoga ceria selalu.... :)

but its kindda sad though... meninggalkan bulan ramadhan kan..
i miss the sahur and bazzr ramadhan and also the hikmah of bulan ramadhan...
don't know bout you but ramadhan.. betul2 akan dirindui... ; (
insyallah..panjang umur.. kite sambut lagi... k la.. da..da...
till the next post....

banyaknyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee assignment

2009-07-24T21:14:00.001-07:00

This semester banyak benor assignment..

semua kena source out of the book... hmmm.. mencabar is global marketing la.. strategic management menarik.. strategic marketing management pun so..so la..

sales pun leh tahan la.. paper dia..kena source kat luar gak..

kesian ariff.. lama tak betul2 jaga dia..

tak pe.. i know what i am doing is for him gak and that.. my kejayaan belongs to him as well..

o well.. if tak rasa susah sekarang macam mana nak rasa senang kemudian..kan..
kena sabar.. nak habis dah.. and another new chapter for me.. once i finished this paper or degree..
he..he..

masters or baby perhaps.. i might do both..

if orang lain leh buat and sacrifice..kenapa aku tak boleh buat? aku mesti leh buat.. mesti cuba and usaha.. sampai boleh...

insyaallah....

k la.. till then..

rindu sama ni budak2..he..he..

2009-07-13T18:50:00.000-07:00

dah anak dara dah anak sedara aku ni... nina is eleven this year...

rindunya kat depa berua nih... hu..hu..hu

o if your are asking depa gi mana for summer.. they went on a cruise..

photos of ariif and me..

2009-07-09T23:05:00.001-07:00

pagi tadi tangkap gambar ni.. nunggu zul la mandi lambat benor.. tu la.. kan ibu dah cakap.. tidur awal..

masa ni... malam.. and he is so excited.. tangok fon je.. tak sabar nak menyambar je...

my new hair cut..

photos of ariff at 11++.. ariff dah leh jalan and he loves technology LT, fon, TV la.. and trucks and kereta ferrari dia.. and keretapi ..so much and enjoys watching politics and paling best.. he will drop everything for azan... specially maghrib sebab time tu memang kami dah balik umah dah..

next week.. ariff nye birthday... tapi maybe we will do it at home just the 3 of us.. kindda like it that way.. just the 3 of us.. simple and sederhana..

k la. till then.. ta..ta.. for now..

yuhuuu.... i am back with more photos from mudah

2009-07-08T20:56:00.001-07:00

Kan best if leh stay kat area cem gini.. look at the pool and the building.. and this a 1 million ++nye area....and having this view... wa... what a life and rumah kan.. baru best nak jemput kekawan and relatives..

mak nak kitchen cem gitu... cantik kan.. simple and teratur je..

if kome boring tak yah le baca.. sebab i am into this interior semua ni sekarang.. kire cam a new passion cem gitu.. he..he...

ariff ada gambar baru semalam and so does ibu... which she cut her hair last week. ok la kot.. short and neat... senang tak serebeh.. and penting sekali i don't look like a TURTLE!!

orang pendek.. gemuk cam aku nih..tak sesuai rambut panjang sangat.. tak nampak tengkuk..nak panjang boleh tapi paras baju je.. more than that u end up looking fatter and a TURTLE!! trust me.. you don't want end up looking like that sebab i've done it!!!! HORROR sangat... he...he.... ni ibunye pendapat.. tak suka tak pe....

k la.. till then... ta..ta...

2009-06-28T21:06:00.000-07:00

another photo from mudah... he..he.. saje je.. i know i can't afford it.. but still..kan best...if

ada cem gini...nanti if ada lagi i will tampal some more...

Anak ibu....

2009-06-28T20:46:00.000-07:00

Anak ibu..

i will never forget this day.. i gave birth to you.. after all the hardship and those hospital visits when he is always not around ..remember when i was hospitalised... its so troublesome for him... but its worth it to be having you as my son.....

MUHAMMAD ARIFF ISKANDAR..

Ariff.. no matter what happens between me and your father ..IBU will always love you. Remember that i will always be there for you. though i can't buy or give you the moon and the stars..and tak pandai nak agah you like your dad... ibu sayang kan ariff gak and hope that you will love me back...

right now.. rindu sangat kat awak..

ariff... ibu sedih sangat.... no one to talk to.. no one to turn to.. ibu rasa nak end je life ibu...

hari ni...29.05.2009

2009-06-28T20:19:00.000-07:00

hari ni.. i went down stairs and bought 2 bottles of diet pills. i don't care anymore as long as i can go kurus or loose weight takat 60 kg or 58 kg... i will and i have to. i had enough of him looking at kurus girls out there... typical malay man.. kan..perempuan kurus semua lawa. so let it be.. biar orang lain pulak tengok aku.. aku geram sangat after what he said... ada la... cannot elaborate kat sini... to personal.. and nothing to do with other women..
but maybe i would get a better treatment if i were a different person..
so here i am.. my mission to get that ideal weight... tak pe.. insyaallah.. i will get that weight.... i will control myself from eating that delicious food.. bukan tak makan langsung..control makan kasik perut kicik cam bulan puasa..mana tau kan...

nanti mak, chu,teh, abang, wani idak le kata aku gemuk lagi.. naik kereta sampai terbenam...
i will never forget all that... though its a joke to u.. but not to me.. i am ur sister!!!! how could you say such a mean thing to me.. masa raya.. pulak tu... maybe you've forgotten... but not for me..

tak pe.. if me being kurus and getting a masters and a degree would gain ur respect... i will prove it to you guys and specially HIM!!

osmawati osman dah hilang kesabaran dah...

I WILL PROVE IT TO YOU!!!!

Happy fathers day.... dedicated to arwah....

2009-06-10T20:56:00.000-07:00

Happy fathers day abah.... che.. rindu sangat kat abah....
i wish ur still here with us.. playing with ur grandsons...and daughter nina ariff and alex....
pity ariff and alex for not being able to get to know u as their grandfather..
tapi i know for sure ALLAH loves u so much and i know ur happier up there.. kan..

If you're still around mesti abah tau macam mana nak nasihat kan.. abah tau apa nak cakap.. apa nak buat semua kan...
abah cam tulang belakang for all of us....
tapi che tau.. ALLAH sayangkan abah....

o ya lupa nak habaq.. ariff nak masuk setahun dah.. next month and he is getting bigger and taller n heavier as well... and loves to play with the gas stove....
if abah ada.. mesti best.... tak pe la bah.. ni semua dugaan tuhan kan.. kite kena bersabar...

Happy fathers day and hargailah bapa , ayah, abah, daddy anda for if they leave us... for good... they'll never come back.. and only memories will accompany you masa father's day.....

adios....

7 secrets of success....

2009-06-10T20:54:00.001-07:00

I found the answers in my room ....

Roof said : Aim high

Fan said : Be cool

Clock said : Every minute is precious

Mirror said : Reflect before you act

Window said : See the world

Calendar said : Be up-to-date

Door said : Push hard to achieve ur goals.....

looking at old college photos

2009-06-04T20:47:00.000-07:00

hmmm... looking at college photos reminds me of my college years in which was enjoying my life to the maximum... ye la kan pvt college.. who cares apa u buat kat sana kan... so pepaham je la.. Langkawi.. liq murah... ciggies murah... clubbing sampai tak ingat nak balik ke asrama.. those we rethe days.. tapi study tetap study... still dapat good grades.. dapat anugerah president lagi tau.. he..he...thats me..

hmmmm.... alangkah bestnye if i can turn back time... and fix few stuffs masa tu..like.. college mates yang banggang.. ada la.. but not u la reen.. ur my best buddy masa tu.. and i am so sorry for not being there sangat for you masa tu..

but then again... life was fun... fun sesangat.....kan?!!!!

Langkawi... i missed u.. a lot!!!!! and wish i could start my life all over again kat sana and this time with Ariff... and zul... and right now...dah terbayang2 ada umah kat sana... maybe a small business... maybe.... ariff can go to skool kat sana... and living a simple life... there.. sampai hujung nyawa... he..he...he...

no more traffic jam.. tak yah nak rush cam sekarang...

bangun tu tak le awal benor dah cam dulu.. tapi kena rush sikit kejar lrt je..

o ya no more MONORAIL.. no more LRT...

yang ada cuma laut..laut dan laut.. dan pasir pantai....and sunset... he..he...

alangkah bestnye....

ok la.. dah le tu.. mak nak balik kg ni... he..he....
have a nice weekend guys....
take care... god bless....

hmmmm.... lama tak update blog

2009-05-28T19:07:00.000-07:00

Dah lama tak update blog. Life’s been good and enjoying my life in KL. Colleagues best sangat we MYOB and we laugh and laugh sampai kol 6.00PM. pas tu balik we walk together-gether exchanging experiences and stories. They actually listen to me. And the best part is we do not Gossip about each other. At least kurang sikit dosa aku kan.he..he..maybe betul apa orang kata.. blessing in disguised kan.... apa yang berlaku dulu ada hikmah di sebaliknya.... i got to learn new things... new places to hang out...and get to know new friends..

Talking about friends.. hmmmm.. memang banyak yang nak aku tulis tapi nanti ada lak yang terasa.. but few days ago.. inilah yang terjadi....
Aku ada this friend of mine... kesian tu kesian gak after what the husband did beating her up sampai separuh nyawa kan tapi...

tapi after seeing her rasa cam nak menjerit je cakap kat dia.. cem gini.."child custody tak habis lagi tapi dok ada affair ngan orang lain.. "and some else's property...boleh.. and the best part is.. padan la ngan jantan tu pun... tetiba citer ada prob ngan wife lak.. i told this friend of mine... those are lame excuses la... for a JANTAN like that.. and awat la dia ni bodoh sangat..dah lama dah i told her the same thing.. sampai at one point dia.. senyap seribu bahasa..
pas few mths baru nak call.. citer tu la ni la.. its not like i don't want to listen or help or advice.. tapi aku kan..
if dok citer benda yang sama.. pas tu aku advice benda yang sama tapi orang tu tak mo dengar mula la aku angin... orang dok nak nolong dia.. pasal kite nampak whats ahead of her..yang dia dok ulang benda yang sama.. silap yang sama... benda la... don't waste my time because.. if you don't want to improve nak berada di takuk yang lama.. go ahead by all means but don't come running around telling me.. ''o wati... i should have listen to you..bla..bla...'' memang boleh BLAH...
aku angin sebab bukan aku tak nasihat dia this and that.. banyak sangat nasihat sampai tak tau nak nasihat cem mana lagi dah...hubby pun sampai cakap.. tak yah buang masa ngan orang cem gini.. dia yang tak nak berubah.... hmmmm..tapi because she is a friend.. i stayed and listen..

hmmm..maybe its a bout time.. aku stop benda ni semua.. i mean.. dengar..dengar and dengar masalah orang.. and nasihat..and understand sebab masalah aku pun bukannye ada orang nak dengar or tolong pun.. like right now... o well.. tak pe.. i turn to ALLAH.. HE'll listen....

back to this friend of mine..... i totally disagree with her...berciter masalah ngan laki orang.. i told her.. if you are sincerely cuma berkawan...dengan laki tu.. ask that fellow to intro u to her wife.. sebab tak nak timbulkan fitnah.. at least the wife tau kome cuma kawan biasa je not more than that.. dia tak nak..i mean laki tu kata.. dia ada prob ngan wife dia..so dia tak nak.. from there we know la kan.. apa maksud laki tu.. tapi kawan aku ni bodoh..laki tu la.. tempat da mencurahkan segala nasib yang menimpa diri dia.. bla..bla...BENGGONG!!!!ha.. geram la ni... sebab tak sedarsedar lagi apa yang berlaku before pada diri dia.. hmmmm... eiii.. dah le.. buang masa aku je...

o ya..latest updates… Ariff dah panjai memanjat.. and his first target is the sofa. Tak boleh pun dia usaha sampai boleh gak.. That’s my boy.. he..he… tapi the scary part is bile nak turun dia tak reti so he will turun cam Superman.. Boleh cem gitu.. so sekarang tak leh lelari tinggalkan dia sekejap.. and dia suka sangat lepak kat dapur.. and dia dah leh reach the gas stove!!!!..
Heart attack tengok dia dok capai nak tekan sana sini..
Ariff.. Ariff... Ibu and Abah loves you so much tau... We pray that you'll grow happily and healthly and jadik anak yang solih taat and patuh pada perintah Allah and also Ibu and Abah...

no gambar yet as i am lazy to uplaod or even to lift up the camera....

Photos of Ariff masa kicik.... ; )

2009-04-29T23:06:00.000-07:00

Me.. and Ariff... masa lam pantang...; )

Belon Panas la pulak...

2009-04-29T22:54:00.000-07:00

Dah lama nak nak update gambar2 ni semua... takd e masa.. snow since i've got all the time in the world maka.... adalah gambar ARIFF ku di sini...

masa ni dia baru 8 ke 7 bulan rasanye..

Gambar-gambar di zoo negara...

2009-04-29T22:40:00.000-07:00

zoo negara

2009-03-30T18:52:00.000-07:00

last week n we went to the zoo.. was really fun... and ariff seronok sangat.. part giraffe tu hulurkan kepala dia and that elephant staring at him... dia idak le takut ke nangis ke jerit2 ke.. rilek2 je..tapi bila part tangkap gambar.. letih cam na pun tak pe.. senyum tetap senyum.. posing tetap posing kan.. tak ingat..penatnye...tapi it was fun...
gambar ada..lam camera tak upload lagi.. nanti la esok will bring the camera.. lagipun nak kena transfer gambar2 tu semua..ada gambar kat zoo and ada gambar masa kami bawak ariff tengok hot air balloon show..melompat2 ariff.. nak kejar belon besar tu.. tak padan dengan tak pandai jalan lagi..; )

o ya final exam lagi 3 minggu... !!!! o man.... paper back to back pulak tu.. so i will be taking off for a week... 2 hari baca membaca.. lagi 3 hari.. exam...
i am praying to GOD... please let me pass.. if tak de A..B pun jadik la.. he...he... and akhirnya... masuk ke tahun akhir... insyaallah... ; )
tak sabar nak habiskan degree ni... c what i can do with it.. ; )insyaallah...

yuhuuuu.. dah lama tak update blog...

2009-03-19T19:07:00.001-07:00

Ariff and his botol susu.. dia dah pandai dah pegang sendiri sekarang.. dah besar dah anak ibu ni...

and o ya la.. dia dah tumbuh gigi ada la sebatang kat bawah... and suka sangat meniti tepi sofa and berdiri.. pas tu dah boleh merangkak on both knees and ada gak if nak cepat dia lupa coordination kot... dia merangkak cam ala2 tentera gitu kan..

and he loves to play in the kitchen and bergaut at my betis.... ; )

the last time we weighted him berat dia dah 11 kg.. alhamdullilah.. susu and makan sama naik.. susu la.. botol kicik... nanti la.. dapat gaji ni.. beli botol besar sikit.. but as for now..kena buat 2 kali sebab dia leh habiskan 13oz or 12oz susu... depends how kuat he bermain with his red car and Mr. crab and bola we bought for him tak lupa gak how kerap he crawls underneath the chair and the table.. pas tu terhantuk... nangis...

he...he... ; )

itulah citer ariff ku..

my part of life... hari ni.. 20.3.2009.. must be my lucky day.. as Mak Hajjah and Ms. Perfectionist tak kerja.. yeee haaaa..... and Ms. Senget will be travelling next week and Mr. Kicap pun.. balik bulan April..

and of coz with more complaints about me..

right now.. aku dipulaukan.. ( lantak le.. peduli apa ) ever since Mak Hajjah has taken over my job.. tak pe la.. apa la sangat kerja yang ada pun kat sini..

tak habis-habis pack brochures. pas tu kejar payment for agent la.. BOSAN!!!! and that leads to...

apa lagi.. carik kerja lain la. kan went for the interview kat KL... he..he.. its a place where you go for a placement test or prep to enter a US university. and corporate training gak..

a small office.. with CHALLENGING kerja.. kena aggresive... errr... aku ni aggresive ke.. ye la kot. tu pasal orang tak suka.. kot kan.. : ) ala...tak suka sudah... peduli apa aku..

but i doubt it la.. wil get that job. cam biasa la.. gi interview bagai nak rak... hantar resume bagai nak rak.. tapi... tak tau mana yang tak kena.. maybe its just not my luck yet kot kan..

insyaallah akan ada la hendaknye...INSYAALLAH..

last class dah this sunday.. ada lagi test.. pas tu yang tak bestnye.. HR ada lak seminar 5!!!!..eiii.. but yang tu test je.. ada lak kat berapa 4 chap kot.. think so.. tak ingat.. !!!

Finally..tunggu time table for final exams... and if pass semua... insyaallah.. lagi 2 sem... this year and early next year.. and i am done.. insyaallah... dah habis semua.. will try to buat masters lak..

he...he. hajat hati nak jadik lecturer... tapi if dapat tutor pun jadik la...; )

INSYAALLAH... ni semua perancangan.. masa depan...

bab duit.. la masalahnye. tapi tak pe.. ambik final ni dulu.. next sem.. tu next sem punye citer la.. ; ) till then....

ta..ta...; )

i miss sis so much..

2009-03-04T19:55:00.000-08:00

rindu sangat kat sis ni... if she is around tau la dia cam na nak advice and advice without fail.. menitik airmata gak le teringat kat dia.. miss all those times we had.. masa dia kat malaysia.. lambat lagi la dia nak balik ke sini.
one thing la bout us... belum cakap apa-apa dah gelak.. tapi tak tau apa yang kami gelak... but we just gelak.. mak pun tak faham kenapa.. rindu sangat la masa-masa tu.. if i am feeling down.. she will always be there to support.. dia tau je nak cakap apa.. nak advise cam na... and she will always like kasik semangat cem gitu..
like with this Bitch kan... she knows the right word to say bout her.. seronok je dengar dia berhujah... ; )

sis.. i miss u so much.. cepat la balik ke mesia ni...

yuhuuu...

2009-03-04T19:35:00.000-08:00

hu..hu.. ada lagi assignment which is group assignment.. tak siap. baru je sudah with this subject called TITAS.. about tamadun segala bagai..
this week tak de kelas.. next week and the week after that ada final seminar for this sem.. alhamdullilah.. and kena prepare for final pulak.. the most crucial part.. will try my best to pass with flying colours. kena tepis.. benda2 tak elok kat sini...
if you get what i mean...
final exam penentu for everything..CGPA la apa lagi.. sebab dah nak masuk final year dah... meaning lagi dua sem je.. lagi insyallah....; ) tak sabar rasanya.. and if possible nak sambung masters... sebab degree sekarang pun cam ada diploma je.. ye la.. berlambak budak-budak muda ada degree.. bukan takat satu tau ..ada yang ada double degree lagi.. yang aku ni terkial-kial nak habiskan degree... ; )
tak pe mak ni slow and steady... ; )

hmmm.. nape yek mata ni asyik berkedip belah kanan je.. dari semalam.. orang cakap nak terima berita gembira.. ( i wish... ) tapi tak elok percaya benda kurafat cenm gini kan..; )

dah lama tak tangkap gambar ariff... dia tak sihat semalam ada slight fever and flu.. cian kat dia. nak senyum pun dia tawar-tawar je... i pray to god that he will be ok soon.. tak sabar nak habiskan ubat demam dia and segala ubat ada yang ada la kat 5 botol cem gitu.. ada oren, kuning,pink, putih, putih... cian kat dia.. meraung-raung nak makan ubat.. cam tak ank bagi tapi if tak kasik karang cam na nak baik..

alahai anak ibu... cepat sembuh nanti kite leh wrestling-wrestling lagi..; )

Bestnye minggu ni

2009-03-01T06:42:00.000-08:00

Minggu ni wasthe best weekn ever as i managed to finish my assignment and tinggal lagi 2 group work to finish up.. hmmm.. o well yang lelain tu dah habis dah.. and dah hantar dah pun.. rasa lega sangat... Alhamdullilah...
o ya.. i bought this earphone so i don't have to hear suara BITCH anymore.. aku if dah benci dengar suara pun aku tak nak... sorila babe.. you can go to hell for all i care...

anyways... pas ni can focus better kot tanpa GANGUAN lagi...
extrovert vs. introvert mana can get along...

Ariff ada asthma sikit... we took him to the clinic.. to get medication and the other visit kena neubelizer.. nampak dah ok dah sikit.. no more coughing mungkin sebab dada dia dah clear dah dari kahak...
cuma if tak hilang gak i will get the referal letter nak masukkan dia ke hospital and get a proper doc to fix it...
i cried sebab tak tahan tengok dia batuk cam orang tua and snoring pun cam orang tua..
ye la.. hidung blockage and dada ada kahak kan..mana nak nafas elok-elok...Isnyaallah hilang la kot... by this week.. nampak ceria je ariff pas dari melawat clinic itu.. walaupun dia cam merajuk with me.. but tak pe as long as dia sihat..

Quote kot benda nih..; )

2009-02-18T17:32:00.000-08:00

Got this from a friend :

There is no beginning or end
Yesterday is history
Tomorrow is a mystery
Today is a gift

Yesterday is a history... i like this ayat...; ) if you understand what i mean... ; )

o ya..lupa nak cakap was so happy yesterday.. i bought a new pair of shoes.. despite duit dah tinggal saki bakikan... have to la... kasut lama dah koyak... daaa.. thats y la have to buy...

gambar tak yah la..kot... ; ) kasut oun bukan la.. brabded ke apa pun.. RM 39.90 je... ; )

one more thing... mak apply kerja baru lagi.. he...he.. as usual.. will not give up... till dapat... kat mana tau FRIM.. better to kerja lam hutan dari kerja kat sini kan...
kawan ngan pokok2 yang tak boleh bercakap tu kan... dari communicate dengan Ms. Sensitive.. kat sebelah ni ha... ewww... o ya decided to put my CP kat atas meja some sort of cam seperator gitu kan.. better....idak le sakit mata sangat... !!!!
selain tu ada lagi yang aku mintak kerja.. nak cuba PPJ, Sukan and UITM.. cuba je mana tau kot dapat ke.. untung-untung ada rezeki dapat.. INSYAALLAh.. pentingnya.. kite cuba dan usaha dari not doing anything about it...
; )

my entry for today... ; )

pas ni citer pasal ariff and apa jadik kat luar je la.. malas dah nak elaborate pasal things at UNIM...BORINGla asyik tulis pasal UNIM je....
cam tak de idea lain dah... UNIM..UNIM je..

happy sangat... nih... dah ada bahan nak siapkan assignment ni.. sikit je lagi and nak focus test this sunday...and the big part... nak complete DEGREE nih.. INSYAALLAH...; )

Batu ku tau rupa-rupanya ada orang ikut blog aku nih.. yang aku tak kenal la.. ada orang suka baca tulisan aku rupanya.. thats a good thing.. ;)
one more thing... AKU PEDULI APA.. WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINKS ABOUT ME!!!... tak SUKA then STAY AWAY!!!.. senang tak yah la nak kelam kabut and pening-pening kepala otak...
bukannya aku dapat duit when people likes me..
read my lips.. I DON'T CARE.. i just don't care....

so.. ta..ta.. ti..ti. tu..tu..cont esok..; )

Sometimes the best way is to stay away

2009-02-17T17:43:00.000-08:00

Hmmm...today i am so..so.. happy because Ms. Sensitive tak datang kerja.. managed to buat banyak sangat benda without thinking if terhempas barang ke.. tak de la orang nak terasa hati ke.. moody ke kan..

Hari ni.. adalah semangat baru untuk aku..aku dah sedar tang mana silap aku...
silap aku adalah being to nice with her... ya la.. the more you know that person baru la the true colours shows...
silap aku lagi adalah being to close with her.. because i thought i can see a true friend from her... rupanya.. i was totally wrong..

First of all i would to thank ALLAH for showing it to me.
I thank ALLAH for giving me this tests and for me to realise things and see things in the postive ways.
I thank ALLAH because he didn't turn HIS back against me.

Aku pun tak tau sejak bila aku sangat-sangat beremosi pasal benda kicik-kicik and as stupid as this.. maybe sejak aku duduk dekat dngan Miss Sensitive kot...
aiyaa.. so horrible.. dulu aku tak cem gini pun.. cheerful-cheerful je walaupun kerja dengan Mr. Kicap.cem pening-pening gitukan...and letih travelling but i still datang kerja.. tak le semalas cem gini.. or bosan cem gini...

a friend of mine cakap.. sabar... buat bodoh je ngan orang cem gini and IGNORE.. tu yang penting...and kite tak leh nak jaga hati semua orang... so lantak dia la kan...

I WILL FOLLOW THOSE ADVICES....

o.. well... hari ni.. aku live another day.. tu yang penting tu... got to live and see Ariff smiliey face and his act... got to live and see hubby... yang bz je.. but for the family.. o well...
alhamdullilah in everything... ; )

BITCHOLOGY

2009-02-16T17:34:00.001-08:00

...; )

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch.

When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.

When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when

I act a little selfish. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.

I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed.

And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.

B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself

..; ) pepagi ni dah mula dah... o well true what....

.....best la lagu ni... MATAHARIKU

2009-02-10T18:45:00.000-08:00

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau
Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi
Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu
Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

hari ni..

2009-02-10T18:09:00.000-08:00

The so called miss perfectionist dah balik dah from her trip to cambodia ( ...o god.. how wish dia tak yah balik malaysia at all ).. so bad of me kan..
and hari ni DIA cam nak jadik like last mth.. i mean not Ms. Perfectionist...its HER.. ala.. my ealier write up bout how i CAN'T STAND HER ANYMORE... aku pun heran.
tu tak masuk bab kerja.. if its bout work.. i just don't understand y does she got to make things so complicated... and kenapa la aku mencurahkan segala ILMU yang aku ada kat sini only to find out that her attitude is like that.. tapi tak pe sebab bak kata kata orang la kan.. kedekut ilmu ni tak kemana.. tak pe la.. no problem...
ambik ko.. aku geram sangat.. sebab your attitude SUCKS big time..

wa..so angry pepagi ni.. sebab DIA gak le..cam na la.. dia communicate dengan orang..
camni..
semalam kat sini power trip and so does the photostat machine.. so dia cam rosak sikit tak leh copy and fax and scan..so she called up the centre.. patutnye the technician datang semalam but she did not follow up.. orang tu tak datang.. so i have to do the clean up for HER!!!!!!!!!!this morning... nanti semua orang tak leh guna.. kan and our office really depends on the machine for faxing and copy..
Aku tak le kata aku ni terer bagus sangat dak.. aku pun.. on the learning curve gak...tapi aku tak biar perkara tu berlalu cam tu je.. i don't TAI-CHI..
hmmm... apa la.. lembut TAK BERTEMPAT... tegas la sikit tapi not RUDE!!!
ye la... compared tu aku.. tak pandai computer-computer cam dia kan.. kasar.. straight foward... tapi kerja jalan.. siap on time..insyaallah...
o ya.. as i am typing this.. mesin photostat tu tengah direpair rite now...
TERIMA KASIH WATI sebab follow up pasal hal ni... as usual...; )

Ni la cara aku express marah aku.. dari aku hurt other people's feelings like HER kan..

ARIFF again...

2009-02-10T17:57:00.000-08:00

suka sangat kena snap picture..cam bersedia je...
light. camera.. action... ; )

saje je masa ni.. dia suka sangat buat aksi cem gini. tak tau mana belajarnye...kelakar pun ada gak.. ariff..ariff.. macam-macam la awak ni.. tapi tak pe.. abah and ibu love u so much... muahhhhhhhhh....

kenapa la.. before that.. my new tikar...

2009-02-05T20:10:00.000-08:00

saje je nak letak gambor tikar yang baru di beli meant for Ariff.. so he will stop jilating the floor kan... and tak le bila dia meniarap.. terkena lantai whatsoever kan... and plus... lembut tikar ni and i like the colour, design.. simple and besar.. senang gak bila orang datang.. idak le.. sejuk duduk atas lantai..

opsss.. yang tilam biru tu belongs to ariff gak... tu la tempat dia lepal night and day... ; )ibu pun belasah gak.. sometimes...

KENAPALA..

kenapala.. aku tak de kereta so i don't have to trouble.. semua orang.. and senang aku nak pergi kelas and if ada extra kelas ke apa ke.. and senang for me to bring ariff where i go and i don't have to trouble zul anymore.

kenapa la. aku tak de laptop.. macam orang lain... senang untuk aku belajar.. tak le terkejar like right now... penat sangat.. kerja and belajar sekali gus cam sekarang.. curi-curi print san print sini... jalan sana sini jalankan kerja aku kat sini.. aku tak tau nanti macam mana.. bile dah masuk final year.. which is another 2 sem je lagi and macam mana nanti if dapat sambung masters?
tah..tah.. aku kena lupakan semua impian aku sebab TAK MAMPU!!!
aku sedih sangat sekarang... sedih sangat.. kenapa dari dulu sampai sekarang susah sangat untuk aku menimba ilmu? mungkin ini dugaan dari ALLAh kot kan.. sebelum berjaya..
apapun aku BERSABAR.. aku tau.. mesti ada plan yang baik untuk aku..insyaallah...
aku percaya semua ni ada hikmahnya..

hmmm.. dugaan...aku tau pasti ada orang yang lebih susah dari aku.. and aku bersyukur... seriously i am. cuma tu la.. bila terkenang balik...

tapi aku berjanji dengna diri aku sendiri yang aku kan habiskan pelajaran ini... I WILL NEVER GIVE UP.. NEVER SURRENDER...

right now.. i am like rindu sangat kat ariff... baru je like kol 12.32 tgh.. right now.. rasa cam nak balik and peluk dia... hilang semua masalah ni.. bila pandang muka dia..

ARIFF..IBU LOVES YOU SO MUCH.. AND REALLY NEED YOU RIGHT NOW..and would like to borrow your cute little ear so that you can listen to ibu's little problem..
and there is this one rhyme that used to nyanyi kat ariff till now... created by Mak tok timah...

cam ni...

burung ketiti
hinggap atas titi
Ariff besar nanti
jangan lupa diri

..; (

anyways.. have a nice weekn....

kami gunting rambut dia...; )

2009-01-28T19:48:00.001-08:00

kami gunting rambut dia... ; ) masa raya cina hari tu we decided that Ariff needs a hari cut badly!!!.. ada orang cakap dia look like girl.. ada yang bertanya pun.. girl ke boy?.. ada ka.. dia rupa cam girl.. tak kan.... ?.. he...he... mula-mula tu senang sangat nak gunting... pas tu dah sebelah kepala botak.. lagi half dia dah meronta-ronta dah.. tak nak gunting..mana boleh..nanti nampak cam punk la pulak kan.. so.. akhirnya.. berjaya dah menggunting rambut dia.. yang dah lama kami patutnya buat...; )

3.01.2008.. bawak ariff gi taman

2009-01-04T18:34:00.000-08:00

He was so..so.. so... happy when we decided to bring to him to the park after dinner.. figured we needed the exercise as well.. ; )

hari ni... kerja seorang.. Ogy coti hari ni and esok.. send her kids to school and so does ida.. and So.. here i am... printing this and that sebab dah tahun baru kan.. semua kena tukar ke tahun 2009 before Mr. kicap and Ms. kicap bikin pening kepala gue je... dah siap dah pun..

don't know y la.. i said yes to Mr. Kicap to terima his desktop calendar.. padahal aku saje je biarkan meja aku kosong..tak de apa pun atas meja aku yang ada cuma sebatang pen sahaja.. almaklumla.. tak de tanggungjawab kat sini.. kerja pun memain cem gitu je kan.. cuma aku thankful sesangat sebab aku tak menganggur and dapat gaji halal tiap bulan. aku idak mencuri or merompak ke whatsoever la kan..

tapi tu la.. teringin gak.. nak ada tanggungjawab and bekerja dalam erti kata sebenar..

ya la.. kerja tu kan ibadah... nak gak... rasa cam na... penat jerih kerja tu.. and buat yang terbaik and berpuas hati..

anyways.. apa pun aku BERSYUKUR......all i know ALLAh is planning something better and the best for me.. insyaallah...

Hari ni aku derma barang-barang yang aku tak pernah guna..pada this friend of mine.. she is from indonesia.. a cleaner.. dia baik and hardworking.. i donated my clothes to her la.. beg la.. all my hand cream la.. i don't know y... but i figured because she is honest kot.. she is always there to listen to my leteran and when i needed a friend... the most... tah le.. tapi aku ikhlas.. aku kesian tengok dia.. dia ada anak seorang.. kat indonesia.. about 3-4 yers old cem gitu rasanye.. and here she is.. working so hard for his little daughter.. and for their future...

she prays for me.. and she said to me.. only ALLAH.. can repay me back .. and wishes that my marraige and my son would be in good health...and happy as well..

i told her.. ''tak pela.. dari tak guna.. rosak cem gitu je.. baik bagi kat awak..lagipun.. tak pernah guna and its stil brand new.. ''and coincidently dia memang guna warna yang aku kasik tu...alhamdullilah.. kebetulan lak.

tah le.. i am happy... looking and seeing her happy.. sebab dia ikhlas kot...and lagipun dia orang susah.. stuck je kat semenyih ni.. and jujur biler bekerja.. insyaallah...

setakat ni kerja dia memang memuaskan.. tak pernah membantah and said no.. bile aku mintak tolong specially... masa aku mengandungkan ariff.. banyak nasihat dan petua yang dia kasik.. and she even helped me angkat kotak-kotak yang berat tu and brochures yang berat-berat kat 10-25 kg tu!!!!

hmmm.. ok la.. back to my paperwork... ada lagi sikit nak siap before hujung minggu ni..ada KELAS... BACK TO SCHOOL.. ; ) can't wait.. ; )

take care.. everybody....see ya.. ; )

2.1.2009

2009-01-01T17:39:00.000-08:00

ni la gamabr meja makan ku... a table which i bought few days back.. a table which i long for.. these years...
a table which enable me to have a proper dinner with hubby and also for my " kerja-kerja sekolah" Alhamdullilah.. again and again... ALHAMDULLILAH..
though its a simple table but it means a lot to me.. as a whole year i worked so hard keep the money to have this just nice not o big not to small dining table..
enough about it...

HAPPY NEW YEAR... May god bless and have a wonderful year ahead to all of us..
as for me.. i want to go kurus and finish my degree this year..insyaallah.. habis cepat-cepat so i cam make a move out from here and improve myself better or enhance myself better...
mana tau kot ada rezeki lebih kat luar sana ke kan mana tau.. insyallah...if ada.. insyaallah.. i would be able to keep more money for me and ariffnye saving.. aku pun bukan muda lagi... i need to secure ariff nye financial status...mana tau kot apa jadik.. he is protected.. insyaallah...

so.... promised my self to go kurus and study really hard... this year.. ; )

31.12.2008

2008-12-30T23:15:00.000-08:00

hari ni is the last day for this year 2008...less than 24 hrs kite akan menyambut 2009
banyaknye citer tahun ni...
tahun ni.. i am blessed because GOD has sent me MOHAMMAD ARIFF ISKANDAR BIN ZULRULAZAHAIRI..pemata dalam family aku yang dilahirkan pada 16.7.2008..
tahun ni bertambah umur aku.. and ALHAMDULLILAH ALLAH panjangkan usia aku dan hubby...

I am so thankful for the precious gift that you have sent... Ariff
I am so thankful that i am living another day di atas muka bumi mu YA ALLAH
I am so thankful sebab semua yang aku mintak bejalan dengan lancar....especially perjalanan hidupku, pekerjaan ku dan terumata sekali pelajaran ku....
ALHAMDULLILAH.... dan bersyukur atas segala nikmat mu.. YA ALLAH..

sedih gak nak meninggalkan 2008... tak tau nape.. mungkin sepangakn setahun ni.. banyak yang berlaku yang aku tak leh nak elaborate kat sini..
shhhhhh.. biarla ia menjadi rahsia aku dan diri ku..

o well.. c u next year.. friends.....
with more stories.. and photos..

P/S fara.... to my fren... he...he.. he..
nanti la mak ni.. letak gambor meja makan tu yek..belum sampai da.. semalam ribut...so kena postpone la.. nanti rosak lak meja makan di tiup dek ribut kan.. ; )

And dedicated to you.....; )
Fara.... i am thankful that god has sent you as my good friend...
i wish you all the best in life dari segi health and wealth... ; )
fara.. kite akan sesama kurus by next year tau.. ; )
and thats a promise.. ; )

Another photo of ariff..

2008-12-30T23:10:00.000-08:00

bile tangkap gambar.. tau-tau je.. senyum and posenye yek..he...he...

29.12.2008

2008-12-30T22:58:00.000-08:00

Selamat menyambut MAAL HIJRAH... apakah hijrah anda? amboi statement.. he...he..

NVM..

o well.. i brought Ariff and hubby to Sogo and we went shopping.. ahta do u mean by we.. IBU la. abwak depa shop sampai ariff tertidur... atas bahu abah dan ibu dia.. he..he..

ala its been a long time have not shop anything for myself.

tak de la shop apa sangat.. but let me see ...

hmmm..

1) I bought this big handbag black ( phewww.. thank god ada sale kan.. if not.. it will cost me a fortune tau.. )

2) Ibought a weaning set for ariff and baju bola and si kecik excited sangat with the baju.. maybe its because of the colour kot kan.. and bip.. sebab dia dah nak mula makan dah..

o ya he will turn 6 bulan dah.. next mth.. on the 16th..

alhamdullilah...

3) Pas tu we went and bought this dining table.. 4 seater je sebab tak nak take up space..

mana tau if we have to move to a smaller place ke..at least tak le take up space banyak sangat kan..

but alhamdullilah.. dah berjaya dah ada meja makan.. for a year i have been yearning for that meja makan and finally ALLAh has fulfill ed my wish...

ALHAMDULLILAH again...

jap letak gambar.. beg ku.. he...he..he.. tumpang dia tengah lawakan..

Ariff and his towel..

2008-12-25T18:51:00.000-08:00

I was busy preparing his warm water.. kire nak mandi la..so i place his towel.. dekat je dengan dia.. when i turn back to look at him.. la.. tengok2 dia dok sedap guling-guling dengan towel.. terkejut gak takut mana tau kan.. tertutup hidung dia ke apa ke..

ibu..ibu..careless... dah tau ariff dah leh mencapai object letak gak.. dekat dengan dia kan...

ishh... will be more caerful next time....

Tak sabarnye tunggu Ariff 6 bulan... hmmm.. dah besar dah anak ibu dari 0 mths.. dah sampai 6 mths dah... alhamdullilah... and smarter....dulu.. cam apa orang kasik.. nganga je... la ni.. dah pandai memilih.. susu if tak suam cam dia nak.. tak mau dia dekat.. if susu tu cam just nice. je.. laju je.. dihisap... hmmm.. tak pe la.. as long as your happy anakku....; )

Lupa nak la nak citer pasal birthday ku.... which was last week...o well.. no present whatsoever..but..

I am thankful sebab aku masih lagi berdiri di bumi Allah

I am thankful that hubby put an effort to celebrate and importantly he REMEMBERS!!!

Biarla tak de expensive gifts from him... but we celebrate it our way which is makan2 kat secret receipe and we bought this 2 pcs of reaspberry cheese cake... and makan kat umah... and he sang birthday song with ariff yang terpinga2 tak tau apa ke benda la.. kami buat kan... and importantly... GROUP HUG....

pas tu jeng..jeng.... jeng... ariff gi cucuk... I AM SO PROUD OF YOU.... tak nangis pun...

Anak ibu.. berani rupanya... dia tak nangis pun masa kena cucuk.. ibu je yang over...he...he..he.. and he is actually 9 kg dah masa tu.. no wonder la.. cam lenguh2 gak le tulang2 ku.. cam nak tercabut tulang rangka ni actually...tapi tak pe.. Alhamdullilah.. semua sihat... and functioning well..

hmmm...raca cam citer dah benda ni.. tapi tak pe la.. rasa cam tak puas citer pasal ariff..

excited..excited.. he..he..

Buggy

2008-12-25T18:26:00.000-08:00

Ariff and his buggy...

Phewww.. finally we bought him a nw buggy selepas yang lama tu hilangkan.. and he is so happy enjoying his ride in his new buggy to tesco la.. and we went to Ikea pun with it! o ya tak lupa, we bought for him a baby car seat as well as classes dah nak mula and abah has got to sent ibu and bring him along..

dah ada car seat tu senang sikit.. a bit worried though takut dia meronta and menangis cem gitu kan.. but i doubt it la.. tapi tah le sebab dia kecik lagi kot kan...tak tau la bile dia dah sedar yang tempat tu tak best sebenarnye.. kan..

o well whatever it is. i am thankful we amanged to buy kedua-duanye sekali.. alhamdullilah..

o ya... ada la gambar sikit... sempat tangkap semalam..

one more thing we bought him makanan for baby 6 and bove... this nestle thingging atogether with mixed vege and also biskut... ala.. farleys tu... banana... dia kan susah sikit kan nak membuang...

hmmm... anak ibu dah nak masuk 6 bukan dah...kan....

tapi ibu akan cuba buat bubur nasi sendiri juga.. nak ariff makan air tangan ibu jugak.. tak mau rely on makanan cem gitu je..

latest photo of Ariff

2008-12-14T20:20:00.000-08:00

latest gambar ariff.. masa ni baru je bangun tidur petang..

ibu memang suka snap gambar.. surprise-surprise gitukan...

He is going to turn 5 mths dah... 16.12.08 ni.. alhamdullilah...

next month will try to feed him with neslac... insyaallah...

Empty space

2008-12-01T01:00:00.001-08:00

Just look at the empty space kat situ... hu..hu...hu.. stroller anak ibu hilang...yesterday hubby, myself and little ariff we went to tesco ala... cam biasa la.. end ot the month groceries shopping... so we walked and shop and shop... sampai dah habis bayar.. evertything went well... smoothly..s o we bought what we want.. and balik...
sampai kat kereta.. hubby told me to get in the car with ariff so i went in while hubby load those stufs we bought.. and drove off.. sampai kat umah... baru dapat tau masa nak unload.. tu stroller missing.... bile hubby patah balik to the same spot kat tesco where we park our car... hmmm.. just as i thought.... trolley tu ada kat the same spot... tapi stroller hilang....
huwaaaaaaa..... tension la... there goes my badget for a dining table or a baby car seat for little ariff.... but apa pun.. i have to choose either one.. to korbankan badget for dning table or baby car seat...
i guess.. i'll choose the baby car seat and let go of the dining table instead.. ye la.. ariff is more important than a dining table anyways....hopefully.. by next mth, i will have enough money to buy that seat ( i have to la... class nak mula dah.. siapa nak jaga ariff... ) we have to carry ariff... class on a sunday.. tak de bb sitter on that day.On a sunday of coz la kan.. bby sitter pun nak rehat gak with her kids gak... hmmmm.....

tak pe la.. i am not angry whatsoever.. benda dah nak jadik.. tak de rezeki nak buat cam na. cuma right now.. i am really wishing tak jadik.. ye la.. semua ni adalah cost that can be avoided... tapi tu la like i said... benda dah nak jadik kan....

begitu lah kisah... AN EMPTY SPACE.....

sekian...

2008-11-27T17:30:00.000-08:00

i do not know why i uploaded this untitled photo in my blog. comel kot.. and inilah benda yang paling creative i could think of right now.. i've uploaded my sons photo...tak pe la kot.. as long as it makes me happy..

hmmm...kind of sad today... seeing my old office after a year transformed into a bloody counselling room... dah ada discussion room but Mr. Hindraf nak gak bilik tu... hmmm.. tak pe la..its not just the room.. its the memories inside it.. banyak sangat.. tapi nak buat cam na..
sabarkan... because i know ALLAH is planning sumthing better for me... insyaallah..

Bile la nak kerja dalam erti kata kerja yang sebenarnye... not like right now. blogging bile ada mood.. baca pasal gossip la.. paper la.. kerja buat air, makan minum.. kire datang ofis ni lepak to the maximum.. and the best part tu la.. FREE INTERNET ACCESS.. tak yah gi CC just to update blog or YM whatsoever..
hujung bulan nganga terima gaji... maybe to you it seems cam fun.. memangla fun at times... tapi not everyday for the past one year ok.. kire 365 days... minus the weekend...
bukan aku tak bersyukur.. ada kerja dan dapat gaji halal everything.. i am thankful tak menggangur.. and everything...
but i know myself better that i can do better than this.. something yang challenging my brains to think..
tapi tu la tak de rezeki lagi kan.. sabar like i said earlier on.. ALLAH has some better plans for me... sebab tu tak de rezeki lagi...insyaallah..
o...well... patience is a virtue.
insyaallah..one day.. aku akan tersenyum... semula...

MUHAMMAD ARIFF ISKANDAR NYE GAMBAR AGAIN

2008-11-27T17:20:00.000-08:00

Ariff again...

Happynye hari ni

2008-11-21T00:05:00.001-08:00

I am so happy today because....... esok...
Its the weekend.. will be able to spend more time with him.. infact.. tak sabar nak balik...rumah and pick him up.. and play with him...
nanti it will be such a drag kan coming to work on Monday... hmmm.. tapi hopefully by monday dah dapat gaji... ada la semangat nak drag my feet to work....
kerja ke kat sini pun... seriously tak de... takat menghadap PC.. pas tu update blog.. pas tu baca cerpen on line.. pas tu balik...
lantak le kat sini kan.peduli apa aku...
janji dapat balik and berhappy with MUHAMMAD ARIFF.. this weekend.. ; )

Pagi ni.. and another photo of myself...

2008-11-19T19:54:00.000-08:00

Memandangkan tak kerja at ALL.. serioulsy TAK DE LANGSUNG.. maka nye.. 'tersnap' la photo.. diri sendiri kat ofis ni..seriouly ni adalah muka keboringan kat sini.. after yesterday.. deep thought mengatakan... TO HELL WITH THIS PLACE.... memang like i said earlier.. cukup hujung bulan terima gaji.. ofis ni nak tunggang terbalik ke apa .. to HELL with it.. as long as.. hujung bulan dalam account ku.. ada duit.. enough..

To : Mr.Hindraf,
TO HELL WITH YOU and your expectations. I DON'T CARE.. read my lips.. sucker.. I DON'T CARE... nak senyum kat ko nak buat apa.. buang masa aku je.. nak say GOOD MORNING kat ko nak buat apa... perabih air liur aku je pun.

To : Ms.Perfectionist a.k.a Ms. Hindraf..
WOIIII... dah masuk lambat hari ni. tak yah la nak tunjuk lu tu efficient and PRO sangat.. peduli apa aku lu stay kat subang ke PJ ke.. lu balik lambat ke travel ke apa ke.. office hours clearly stated 9.00Am - 5.30PM... lu dah tau kawasan lu tinggal tu Jam.. keluar la awal.. ni masuk ofis nak tunjuk lu tu cam bagus sangat.. udah le.. To : Ms. Senget.. UDAH LE.. with the dinner.. dah semua orang tak nak pergi.. jangan la nak paksa orang.. who wants to go to that bloody dinner anyways.. u want to go just go la.. with Mr. Hindraf... tak yah nak memaksa orang.. pergi..

To : Ms. Panic..
I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT YOU.. SINCE YOU ARE ALWAYS PANICKING je kan... There i go again babbling about this place...

Next round... i will try to talk about ariff more... ARIFF... My son.. u r the only person in this world who makes me laugh... and at ease.. though at times.. i may be so angry... and nag.. a lot.. but I LOVE YOU THE MOST... I am sorry i babap your punggung.. semalam....

Pagi ni.. syok la.. gi kerja naik tren kosong je and cam tertanya-tanya lak " eh kerja ke hari ni' if kerja kenapa kosong je.. banyak lak tempat duduk.. " so there i was on my own lam tren kosong..syok tak de orang.. and minding my own business... kan best if hari-hari tren tu kosong je cam hari ni.. jap yek tengok ada gambar.. sempat lak tangkap pagi tadi.

TO HELL WITH THIS PLACE.... memang like i said earlier.. cukup hujung bulan terima gaji..

ofis ni nak tunggang terbalik ke apa .. to HELL with it..

as long as.. hujung bulan dalam account ku.. ada duit.. enough..

To :

Mr.Hindraf,

TO HELL WITH YOU and your expectations. I DON'T CARE.. read my lips.. sucker.. I DON'T CARE...

nak senyum kat ko nak buat apa.. buang masa aku je.. nak say GOOD MORNING kat ko nak buat apa... perabih air liur aku je pun.

To :

Ms.Perfectionist a.k.a Ms. Hindraf..

WOIIII... dah masuk lambat hari ni. tak yah la nak tunjuk lu tu efficient and PRO sangat..

peduli apa aku lu stay kat subang ke PJ ke.. lu balik lambat ke travel ke apa ke.. office hours clearly stated 9.00Am - 5.30PM...

lu dah tau kawasan lu tinggal tu Jam.. keluar la awal.. ni masuk ofis nak tunjuk lu tu cam bagus sangat.. udah le..

To :

Ms. Senget..

UDAH LE.. with the dinner.. dah semua orang tak nak pergi.. jangan la nak paksa orang..

who wants to go to that bloody dinner anyways.. u want to go just go la.. with Mr. Hindraf...

tak yah nak memaksa orang.. pergi..

To : Ms. Panic..

I AHVE NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT YOU..

SINCE YOU ARE ALWAYS PANICKING je kan...

There i go again babbling about this place...

Next round... i will try to talk about ariff more...

ARIFF... My son.. u r the only person in this world who makes me laugh... and at ease.. though at times.. i may be so angry... and nag.. a lot.. but I LOVE YOU THE MOST...

I am sorry i babap your punggung.. semalam....

Ideas

2008-11-19T00:00:00.000-08:00

why must we be angry bile kite tak boleh menerima idea orang lain. I just don't understand why.bukankah each one of us is entitle for our own opinion and ideas. I am not angry whatsoever cuma tak faham. bile kite tak setuju dengan orang lain tak kire la ideas ke opinion ke mesti nak bermasam muka cam cuka. hmmm.. entah le.
Bosan betul dengan keadaan kat International Office. Orang kat sini banyak idea tapi.. bile kite tak setuju dengan idea yang given by them... dah nak tunjuk gile kuasa whatsoever...
tak pe I will find another option... u know la what i mean kan..
i wil try my best high and low and insyaallah.. just pray and hopefullu i wil be able to get out from here. aku sayang gak kat sini. tapi.. sori la bro.. tak mencabar mindaku at all.. bile datang ofis dok baca pasal gossip, sembang dari pagi sampai ke petang sampai balik.. pas tu dok tengok pasal resepi segala bagai.. mencabar apa namanye tu.. kerja ke cam gitu... hmmm.. tah le..
aku pun tetakut gak nak blah daris ini. mana tau.. tempat kerja baru.. tu lagi teruk ke apa ke..
tapi tu la.. takkan nak selamanye cem gini..
tak leh jadik. rasanye cam useless sangat.. belajar tinggi2 untuk semua ni ke pun?
baca pasal gossip la pasal masak la.. benda la... hmmm...
tapi tu la.. sabar.. my time will come soon..insyaallah...
will try my best to search for opportunities else where..
insyaallah...
ok la.. catch u again tomorrow... signing off....
nak kejor bas la pulak... ; )

OBAMA

2008-11-05T23:34:00.000-08:00

Aku tau la dia dah gantikan BUSH tu kan... tapi apa masalah minah ni sebenarnye.. why is she so obsessed with him.. boleh tak cam nak cakap je kat minah ni.." aku peduli apa OBAMA tu mati kena bunuh ke jadik ke idak ke presiden.. udah-udah le tu... " i know its important to know ye la.. tak salah..tapi idak le every detail nak kena kasik tau pasal dia kan..
bile aku tanya pasal sejarah kawan tu.. senyap tak tau apa...la..kata dah obsessed sangat dengan si OBAMA tu....
hmmm... entah le... tapi bile sembang pasal politic kat malaysia nganga je..
aku ni idak le terer benor politicnye pun.. boleh la sesikit... nengok berita yang mana sempat...
eiiii.. dah le... bosan betul...

orait.... mak ni nak ready-ready nak balik kejar sana sini... cam lam time table tu...
so i shall cont esok...

Gambar Ariff

2008-11-03T20:46:00.000-08:00

I know i promised a lot of people gambar ariff.. and alhamdullilah dah berjaya menguploadkan his photos.. dari baru sudah mandi sampai la dia meniarap....
hurayyy...dah berjaya upload.... and i can look at him everyday.. kat blog ni....

in abah's arm

2008-11-03T20:42:00.003-08:00

Baru sudah mandi... and wondering benda la ibu ni.. kan

2008-11-03T20:40:00.000-08:00

Dia dah boleh meniarap at 3 mths...

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Ariif... tengok la dia tidur..

2008-11-03T20:36:00.000-08:00

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Dia tengah tidur....

2008-11-03T20:34:00.000-08:00

Ibu saje je... tak de kerja...

ARIFF

2008-11-03T20:27:00.000-08:00

aiyaaa.. gi tangkap gambar dia sampai twice la pulak.. satu masam satu senyum kire ok la yek

happy sangat hari ni

2008-10-22T20:21:00.000-07:00

Alhamdullilah.. happy sangat hari ni.. Ariff dah boleh meniarap, pusing and angkat kan kepala dia....if not dulu sangkut part tangan.. pas tu dia berenti. ... and when he is tired.. dia cam jerit mintak tolong...
so funny... ariff..ariff...

Ibu mintak maaf sebab awak memain sorang-sorang sampai tertidur semalam... I have to sayang if not.. ibu tak bermakan la malam and pagi ni...
he played yesterday sambil hisap jari...sampai tertidur...kesian...
tapi dapat jugak memain dengan dia pagi tadi..alhamdullilah...
kiss-kiss dia kiri and kanan.... and he was so happy gak kot dah boleh meniarap, sideways and pusing kan badan 360 degree...
Mesti korang boringkan baca blog ni.. tak habis-habis citer pasal Ariff je...
eh mesti la.. he is my son... i gave birth to him...mesti la aku bangga. and who cares what others think...

nanti bulan december or end or middle of Nov kot dah start class balik.... ada lagi 3 sem cem gitu nak habis and insyaallah.. tak sabar nak naik atas pentas and pakai that robe and get that degree...insyaallah
pas tu.. tengok la.. if i have to buat loan bank nak sambung masters.. insyaallah i will.. nak gak masters.. tak kire.. insyallah...
its my ambition.. nanti tak de orang akan pandang rendah lagi dekat perempuan ini.... OSMAWATI OSMAN....

ok la.. cont esok...

MUHAMMAD ARIFF ISKANDAR

2008-10-21T18:29:00.000-07:00

Melahirkan Muhammad Ariff Iskandar adalah the best thing yang pernah berlaku dalam hidup aku.
Nothing could ever take that experience away from me. Being hospitalised for 2 days and using forcep though it was a normal delivery cukup mengajar aku erti the unconditional love yang dimaksudkan oleh sis before she left for vienna last year...
thank u sis....now i know....

Muhammad Ariff Iskandar...
ibu love u so much sayang...
i pray to ALLAH that you will grow and menjadi seorang anak yang bijak, soleh, sihat dan sempurna akal dan fikiran mu...
Jangan lupakan ALLAH bile dah berjaya nanti
Insyaallah...

Muhammad Ariff Iskandar...
Ibu promise that i will work hard and keep the money
Ibu promise to study hard and find a better job
Ibu promise that i will give you everthing that i can

Muhammad Ariff Iskandar...
I WILL ALWAYS, ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY ENTIRE LIFE...

my first time blogging

2008-10-21T18:10:00.000-07:00

i have no idea y do i have my own blog and blogging. tah le.. but whatever it is i love tulis-tulis ni... blog tempat i let it all out. tak yah nak citer kat sesiapa just type je apa yang aku rasa.